[iamhere]

Dear lord.. this site has gone rogue again!
Random posts, or actual people trying to post for advice/help… all awaiting moderation 🫣🫣

Well, thought I’d check in. Life has been going well, I haven’t gambled in almost 13 months now. I don’t think about it much at all, every now and then my mind will wonder and im always shocked at how ‘brave’ I was. The amounts I’d bet.. I felt nothing while dropping $10 per spin, depositing amounts of $500 at a time. I literally feel sick when I even think about doing that now, I was so wrapped up in this addiction. Wild times.

My credit cards are almost all paid off. From 35k to about 9,500.00 left. It’s been a hard grind. Ive been so focused on paying it off. When I finally do pay it all off, I’ll close the book on these gambling chapters of my life.

I will not allow gambling to take my soul, or be the reason I don’t accomplish things, or allow it to consume any more of my time.

A relationship im happy has ended. ❤️❤️

[iamhere]

Hi CraigMac6!

Two weeks is amazing, well done ❤️. The further you get from that last bet.. the better you’ll feel.

Cheers to another day gamble free 🙌

[iamhere]

Hey guys! Thanks for taking the time to message me 😊
It’s hard to believe its already been a year!! ✨️

❤️🙏

[iamhere]

Almost at my 365 day mark!

What a world of a difference my life has been.

I no longer feel crippled by the emotional highs and lows of this addiction. The debt, the endless hours of jabbing my thumb on my screen.. spinning over and over again. My brain turning into mush.. the despair I once felt doesn’t live within me anymore. ❤️

I have fully paid off one of my cc’s and the last two shall both be paid off by the end of the year. Its been a hard hustle, but I feel motivated to rid myself of the lingering memories of this addiction.

Ill always be a gambling addict, this I know. There will never be a time where I’ll have control. I know this now, and I’m at peace with that.

I hope everyone else has been continuing on. Each day you stay gamble free, is truly the best decision. ❤️

[iamhere]

I scrolled all the way to my first entry: July 30, 2024. I am so grateful I haven’t felt like that way since then.

I feel so far from my last bet that I have forgotten that sickening feeling of loss. The feeling of my stomach turning, the feeling of despair and hopelessness.

I am grateful I am nearing my one year mark! ❤️

[iamhere]

What a tough piece to read. Im sorry that little 8 year old you endured this. ❤️

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[iamhere]

Yay!! You did it. CONGRATULATIONS!!
What an amazing accomplishment, you should be very proud of yourself.

How’s learning Spanish going??

What have you been up to since graduating ??

❤️❤️

[iamhere]

Hi Freedom!

Welcome to the forum! Ive been here for about a year. About to hit my 1 year gamble free. 😄

Its been a journey. A lot of reflection, a lot of “wtf” moments.. the further you get from that last bet – the more clear your mind becomes!

we have more life a head of us than behind us. This can be but a small blip in our life stories..One day at a time, the only way out is UP! ❤️

[iamhere]

Hi Phong,

My heart hurts knowing the pain you’re in. The sickening feeling we have all fealt from this addiction.

I don’t think you’ll find Financial help here, but what you will find is support and an understanding audience. ❤️

[iamhere]

THE COUNT DOWN IS ON!! 🙏🙏😄

[iamhere]

Hi Oziljoseph,

This addiction will show no mercy, it has not feelings and it won’t stop until it has taken everything from you.

You need to draw the line in the sand and put some barriers up to protect you and your loved ones.

Acknowledging you have a problem is the first step. ❤️

Now, what are your next steps?

[iamhere]

Welcome Simon25 👋

You have found the right place to tell your story. 🙂
I hope your story will include you conquering this addiction. ❤️

[iamhere]

The countdown is on!! A couple weeks to go!! That’s amazing.

[iamhere]

Ohh almost 100 days!!

Also I googled Ray Tracing – that is cool! I never would have thought about something like that!

You’re almost done your degree!! That’s so exciting.

When is the report due!?

🙂🙂

[iamhere]

I’ve been chipping away at the debt I’ve accumulated during my last “binge” of gambling. Almost a year ago now!

I managed to get a chunk refunded by some third party merchants from those shady off shore casinos. The time I invested in looking up and investigating these casinos is what I believe has been a HUGE part of my success. I actually whole heartedly know.. I will never win, these casinos are rigged, and the idea of winning is just that – an idea! Not a reality, and it’ll NEVER be a tangible outcome!

I had just over 35 grand owing about a year ago, now I’m at about 17 grand owing!
Chipping away at it. 🙂

I’m looking forward to financial freedom. Freedom from debt and freedom from gambling. This grind and the struggle to succeed will be worth my glory! ❤️❤️🙏

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