[iamhere]

Hi 😊

Ohhh 5 months!! Congrats- definitely an accomplishment.

Your energy and presence is lighter and happier. I smiled while reading your message. … the susssssppppeeeennnnsssee!!! Im excited and I can’t wait till you can spill the tea ❤️.

[iamhere]

Hey you!!

Can you tell us now?? We are all rooting for you!!

I hope you are doing well. I still pop on every now and then and sift through the garbage posts.

❤️🙏

[iamhere]

Hi Sarah 😊

I hope you’re still going strong on your journey. Things get easier, joy can return and life fill back with colour.

Reading your words reminded me of the despair that this addiction brings, don’t let yourself forget the feeling, it’s what will keep you from going back. ❤️

I hope you’re still enjoying the sunshine 🌞

[iamhere]

625 days since my last bet!

The last few days I’ve been thinking about the amount of money I would have wasted if I didn’t quit when I did. How much debt would I be in? How bad would my mental health have been? How financially crippled would I have been? How much would I have hated myself? How deep would I have been believing every time was the last time? How much time would I have sacrificed from my child? How many sleepless nights would I have had? How many tears?….

What use to consume me, holds no power over me. I never want to know the answers to these questions.

Every day we are lucky to have. The choice is yours on How you want to spend it.. or waste it. ❤️

[iamhere]

Well hello world! 👋

Seems a bit quiet here, lots of spam, yet this website holds my journal, my words, a portion of my life that was a literal nightmare, words of despair, and then words of hope, and the progression of getting here… where I am now.

I hope this site makes it, I hope spam doesn’t swallow it whole and that all of this evaporates into the abyss!

Almost April now, almost a 1/4 way through the year…

Just know it gets better, it gets easier, there is light at the end of the tunnel 😊❤️

[iamhere]

It’s a test I’m looking forward to facing 🙏❤️

[iamhere]

562 days.

562 days since I started to starve the bad wolf.

562 days

I received wan email this morning. My self-exclusion period was coming to an end. The 30 day notice. Not even phased.

I am down to $4300.00 debt left to chew through. 562 days it took me to pay off $30,700.00. 562 days of perseverance.

Im proud of where I am today.

Couple months to go, the only way out is up. ❤️

[iamhere]

Asdfghost,

What a tragically sad post to read. My heart hurts for you. The emptiness you feel, we have all felt before. The grass is greener on the other side – I promise.

You are in the depths of hell, where you’re at you don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. Focus your gaze.. there is a glimmer of light that’s trying to shine through.

Beating this addiction is not easy, if you want it bad enough, you can quit. I have been paying off 35k of debt from this nightmare. 18 months and I still have just under 5k to go. The thoughts of trying to gamble to win it back were fierce at one point. I will never let myself forget who I was and that version of myself.

Focus on finding the light. ❤️

[iamhere]

Amazing 🙏🙏🙏

[iamhere]

Hello!

2026 has arrived. August of 2025 I mentioned I had $9,500 of debt left to pay. July 2024 I opened my first journal entry with $35,000 of debt solely obtained from gambling. January 2026 I am down to the final $4,850 of debt remaining. I chewed through 2025 paying this debt off. The end shall be bitter sweet. What a waste of money, and what a waste of time.

The slow grind paying this off has allowed me to feel the growing pains of my decisions.

I am looking forward to the entry where I get to write: debt = $0.00.

Till my next entry…

Happy New Year. I hope everyone achieves all their goals for the upcoming year 😊🙏

[iamhere]

Happy New Year ❤️

[iamhere]

Ohhh Christmas is around the corner. 🎄🎄

I scrolled up, December 12, 2024 was my December post last year. How time has passed.

I truly feel free from the grip of this ugly addiction. But I’ll never forget the damage it has caused, the version of myself I had evolved into. The financial disparity I caused my family. It has allowed me to be graced with gratitude, perspective and strength.

Gratitude for the relief of being free. The reality that the only way to truly win, was to stop. I’m grateful for the clarity that came.

Perspective, that everyone has a silent battle. No matter what the outside version of someone is, we are all flawed and perfection is an idea.

Strength, to continue moving forward. Being a better version of myself every day. Choosing to not drown in this endless pit of misery.

2026 will be as great as I want to make it. Cheers to that and another year forward.

Xo

[iamhere]

Hi ❤️

My heart feels shattered reading your November 21 post. I am so incredibly sorry you’re in this situation. I wish there was something I could do for you.

I don’t have words of wisdom to share, or suggestions. I don’t know you, but I care for you. I come on here, often thinking you’d have written in your journal or commented on mine. We are worlds apart, but connected by this broken, rusty, forgotten site.

The world is a much darker place without the salvation of hope.

Just know there are people here who care for you ❤️

[iamhere]

WOW. It’s been a whole month! I had to go to the second page!

It’s been a busy month. I haven’t thought much about gambling this month. That was nice. It truly has become so insignificant, and the further I get from that last bet, the more insane it is to realize how much money and time I so freely gave up!!!

Hopefully check back in sooner than a month!
😊

[iamhere]

Hi Craig!

Nice to see you pop back on.

Relapsing is the hardest. The false hope, the vicious circle of it all. Thinking you have control, and this time will be different, you won’t chase the losses, you’ll withdraw the money this time…. the list goes on.. and on. .

We have all been there.

The decision is hard, but there is ONLY one answer to this. You have to stop. There is no winning, it’ll never change. You will continue to post about the set backs.

I know you don’t want this. You need to be the best version of yourself for you, your family, and your future!

What safety guards do you have in place? Download gamban, close your gambling accounts, hand over your finances?

I know you can kick this!

To another day gamble free!

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