[Wills1984]

Thank you for your advice and support. Another day done today. 

[Wills1984]

Today was the day I have been dreading all week as I usually spend my whole Saturday gambling. I got up,early went and had my hair cut and did a bit of shopping. When I got home all I could think about was betting on a horse, I argued in my head for most of the morning. Then I suddenly had a thought… what if I downloaded the bookies app rather then going online surely gamban could block an app. I had to try it and it was blocked by gamban. If it hadn’t of been blocked I really can’t be confident that I wouldn’t have had a bet. But on the positive I didn’t and I watched a film and distracted myself for the rest of the day. I am so,happy I have made it so far. So many times I have tried to stop gambling but I have failed normally after less then a day. I’ve almost made a week this time and I couldn’t be happier. Thank you for your support. These forums are so important. Take the time to read everyone’s stories and you realise you are not alone and we can all try and support each other through this hellish time.

[Wills1984]

Well done, I am also on day 5 of now gambling after years and years of daily gambling. Keep it up.

[Wills1984]

Another day and I still haven’t given in. To be honest I didn’t believe I could make it this far. It’s only 5 days but for me in my mind it has felt like 5 months. I am for the first time this week feeling proud of myself. Today is my monthly payday and normally the day that I spend all my money that I work so hard for in about two hours. I have felt strong all day and my determination to succeed is getting stronger. I know that gamban has really helped me this week so please anyone reading this who can relate please download it and do it. I didn’t think I would ever commit to it but once you make that decision to download it and put it in place there is no going back. I have also been marking the days gambling free on the fridge and that has made me determined to keep going. My mind set has completely changed today, I am nervous about tomorrow being Saturday and is the normal day I love gambling on horse racing all day but with gamban in place and my accounts on self exclusion I won’t have a choice anyway! For years and years I have gambled every Saturday without fail so now after all these years what do I do with my day? I’m having my hair cut and doing some shopping that will at least distract me for some of the day! Thank you so much for the previous comments they have really helped my way of thinking and the support is so Important I hope I am able to offer others help and support.

[Wills1984]

Today another day further. I know it sounds bad but life feels so boring without gambling. I’ve tried to get a hobble but I can’t stick to anything I’m interested it. On a positive this is the longest I haven’t gambled for about 5 years. The weekend feels me with dread as that is when I tend to gamble a lot. What do I do with myself all weekend if I don’t gamble? Will I ever wake up and not think about gambling?

[Wills1984]

Good luck I am on my third day.

[Wills1984]

Well done on doing so well. I am only on my third day and I am finding it really difficult to stop arguing with myself in my head that I should gamble. When does it get easier? Thanks

[Wills1984]

Gone another day, so tempted to gamble tonight. I 99% convinced myself that it was ok to gamble. I was ready to use my dads iPad to login and gamble money I don’t have. I have gone to bed and trying to distract myself by watching TV. I am finding it very difficult to get my mind on something else. When does it get easier and does it?

[Wills1984]

Thank you for your words and support. I haven’t gambled all day and when I was frustrated with gambling yesterday I downloaded gamban. Free trial for a month. So I cant gamble, I went through how I could remove it as I really wanted to gamble today but after about two hours I realised I couldn’t remove the ban off my ipad or iPhone. I was so angry at first but then I thought hang on you want to stop gambling don’t you? I feel like there is two of me one that wants to gamble and one that dosent. It feels so weird that I can’t gamble This evening. I thought I would feel good about that but the truth is I feel empty and I just want to gamble. Does it get easier?

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