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Now approaching to second month:)) Here are the updates;
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n- getting better financial position
n- understanding value of money
n- spending on hobbies
n- no more depression
n=> now first time resisted against urges!!
n=>> yes sponsor is wonderful if you are alone like me
n=> better take care of myself
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nPlease never give up and fight! One day at a time!

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– i also lost the ability to withdraw whatever the balance it took me a lot to realize this. I would love to share an experience to show how strong this addiction;
nIt was 3 years ago, i went to a vacation and of course around evening i visited the Casino. I played for an hour, won around 400 hundred and left the casino, bought some souvenirs etc. But after a while i came back again..
nI played like crazy like 5 hours and i lost around 5K usd. I was faraway from home, got only 20 Usd and 10 km to hotel. All my cards and accounts are cashed out. I was crying, having pain in my stomach.. then i started to play Baccarat with my last 20 bucks. A miracle happened in an hour and from 20 to 6 thousand, i made it!! I got rest, ate, gave tips etc. and i sat again , i promised myself, u can lose until 1.000 because you are up.. when i was down to 4.900 i lost control.. that night under the rain i walked to hotel 10 km.. survived eating last 4 days with hotel breakfast and ruined my trip…
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nAs a summary;
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n- You can promise to yourself as much as u want, but once u sit on the table, you will be always losing control
n- This is also maths, in the long run house always wins because of the edges.
n- cut the funds and go cold turkey with this. I could do this for a year but what i learned from here Is that we should do everything one day at a time..

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This time i feel very good and confident! What i learned is that i must quit everyday in order to recover. I would never say that i’m done. Thank you for this website and thanks to fellowship.
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Buy yourself a small present after every successful month to motivate yourself. But take your decision and say yourself that you are done with this addiction.

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Hi there, sorry to hear that but you can give another try. As i wrote you i was able to stop this for a long time but what i learned from GA meetings is that recovery lasts last time.
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nOur brains always finds an excuse to play,i will write you my personal experiences below, however what i learned is those excuses are lies but nothing else;
nSome if mine excuse and results;
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n1) i never play online, i don’t trust websites so i go casinos (i lost in maybe 25 online casinos)
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n2) In the real casino i feel money and i can immediately withdraw so better go there, online casinos pending transactions makes me lose (i could withdraw only 3-4 times all this time and self excluded after every loss)
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n3) In side bets i can win more in online casinos so lets register and see
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n4) I will play with only 500 as a hobby and never reach this..
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n5) I lost last times but this will change now, i can’t be losing all the time
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n6) after a long sessiom with a losing streak;
n I lost because this person was there
n I lost because my phone rang
n I lost concentration and lost because of my family is looking for me..
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nAfter all, since this addiction is progressive, i start to lose every session that i played and found that this addiction was even organizing my holidays througy my subconsciousnes.
nI played in Vegas, Brussels, Zurich, Venice, Monte Carlo, Berlin, Frankfurt, Madrid, Barcelona, Budapest, Helsinki, Prag, Wien and many others and in the end there is no single win.
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nSo my advice again; Decide not to play, fight with urge and quit all credit cards and reduce to only one bank account. Use gamblock and gamban, self exclude yourself from the both online and offline casinos.

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Yes i’ve posted my story. I started to fight gambling addiction in 2013 and after a big win in 2015 i started to take it under pressure however i could never control it. Things i have done;
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n- self excluded from almost every casino
n- self excluded from almost every well known websites
n- had new hobbies
n- gamblock software
n- and sworn many times
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nHowever, this thing beaten me all the time, but in 2013-2014 i was going to casino everyday and smoked weed to ease pain after every loss. During that time i lost my friends, lost thousands, got weight + 20 kilos, and my mental health was almost gone.
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nIn 2016, i decided to take therapies and started to continue my education this helped me a lot. During that period of two years,
nI smoked twice and played 4 times but all was limited and didn’t had any financial issues. After all;
n2018 played two times (2 days)
n2019 Played 3 times (3 days)
n2020 played 2 times (2 days)
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nThe most important thing is that in the last 3 sessions i lost a lot and depression that i faced was so high. After all i admitted myself that i have a problem.
nI don’t play often but in 2 days i play with high amounts and facing severe emotional effects.
nOn july 1,2020 i said to myself that is enough and now i decided to join weekly GA meetings, contacted a therapist and closed all bank accounts except one.
nEven i stopped weed for a year, i never drink and smoke and as a charachter i’m a strong one but against gambling i am defenseless..
nSo my advice is that if you play again you will probably lose becaue for a gambler money is not the priority.. besides odds are favor of the house.. if u don’t feel like this again take the first step.. by the way i reduced and controlled this habit with help of 12 steps guide.
nMy last advice is now enjoy the recovery and wait for good days, i know u can do it and we can heal only by time.
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I read your storyand its similar to mine. It is better to start for solutions and get rid of your financial limits and cards which can be a barrier for u. Since u attended to GA meetings and u were successful to stop this i see that u can do it and u really want it. You can write me anytime, i am also coping with this addiction at the moment, i wish u good luck! And believe u that u can control this..

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Hi there,
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nI was again beaten by gambling, since my last game and highly devastating situation i played and lost another 2k usd. Actually i don’t know what triggered me but i now promised myself for the last time and did the following actions;
n1) as a start i closed all my credit cards,
n2) i reduced overdraft balances of my accounts
n3) at the month i will be working with only 1 bank and only 1 credit card with a limit if 500.
nThose are the preventions to limit my reaching, altough i am not sure if i’m an addict or not.
n4) i will start to read 12 steps everyday morning and before sleep
n5) i will medidate
n6) i will do sports in order to increase dopamine levels
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n-> however, perfect solution is to find what triggers me. Am i an addict or i do this because of my depression?
nI will update here once in a month if it’s successful if not i will come with my failures again and hopefully not.
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I take your advice and got an appointment from a addiction trained professional psychologist. i will get over this.

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Could you please advice me what kind a pro help i need to seek

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