I forgot to mention the inheritance was the most money i’ve ever had in my life and its slowly going away. I mostly gamble when i drink also. (im a alcoholic as well) i feel i have all this at a young age and it hurts to feel this way.
im the same exact way as you are and i know how your feeling. Its very hard but we can over come this im trying as well. One day at a time. Hope to hear more.