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lovely thread laura. wish i had come here before.. glad that you managed to avoid any slip.. i had the same urge as you.. but unfortunately it took me this time.. hope you continue on the right track and keep guiding others as well

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thanks laura. remember you from the last time. hope you are well, thanks for your support. this forum did it for me last time and i am sure that i should be able to come back on track with all the support here. it is so depressing to see that you spend so much time in looking for the best deals and try to make saving in everything and keep putting all the money in casino without thinking once.

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thanks a lot all for posting on my new thread.. i am not sure whether it is possible to revive the old thread as i was so attached to it. well, the lessons are learnt the hard way for us CG’S. i did not take action on that day and ended up adding to my losses. again that craving returned and overcame my resolve. but the very next day i have put gamblock on my laptop so hopefully not any more now. you are right ican that i should use it as a lesson and built my recovery much more stronger on it. thanks vera for reminding me how much this money means to me and how important it is to keep it safe. i worked very hard on my recovery and made every day count in last 22 months.. cannot afford to go back in the darkness again though i must say it is so easy to slip back and once again you loose interest in everything else in life. working long shifts this weekend and trying to think positive. though i have lost a huge sum in just 3 gambling nights but cannot keep cursing myself and ending up trying to recover some of it.
i feel ashamed of myself that when i knew it well , still i did not stop myself on the very first night. but what happened has happened.. looking positively to the future once again.. may be i needed this kick to remind myself how close to disaster i was.
vera, i wish you had a longer recovery but we have to try every day and after every relapse.. that is hard fact of our life and that is difficult to change.. thanks once again for all your support.

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hello kathryn,
long time.. good to see that you are still regular at the site.. will go through your journal when i get some time. hope you are doing well

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hi bettie!! congrats on your new car.. and congrats for your sisters husband getting a new job.. you keep continuing your exercise and keep your diabetes under control. you sound happier in your posts and nice to know that.tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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hi bettie.. loved your last few posts, thanks for sharing with us. .good that you are gamble and smoke free.. hope it continues.. take care of yourselftomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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congrats larry for still able to say that your last bet was in august 2009. you are a source for constant motivation and encouragement. thanks for postingtomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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everybody goes through phases bettie.. we all are humans.. and not machines.. emotions have a large role to play in our functioning.. take some time out for yourself, eat well, drink plenty (not alcohol) and try to slow down the pace of life.. easier said than done.. but can be done.. hope you start feeling better soon. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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hello kathryn, very lively and healthy discussion on your thread.. as expected from an aussie!! we are having miserable weather here, no snow and no sun..tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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hello bettie, it is very good that you avoided any gambling yesterday, it gives such a good feeling next day if we have not messed up last night.. you are having so much stress for last few weeks.. hope things settle down with jen and you keep going strong. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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bettie!! keep yourself occupied and dont let gambling thoughts pollute your mind.. look how many of us are here.. and many of us had big wins but still we could not do anything with that money.. infact ended up loosing everything we had.. that is what i tell my urge whenever she tries to attract me towards her.. that when she could not make any of us happy then what is different in her this time.. gambling may not be the reason for all our problems.. but gambling is not the solution to any of the problem..
take care.. and hope jen recovers well and you too.. good nighttomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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hello kathryn!! enjoy the tennis.. how will i recognize you on telly???tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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lovely to see you are enjoying a gamble free and smoke free life kathryn!!! life has so much to offer only if we are not ready to have it. hope it continues.. enjoy your tennis.tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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sorry to know about jen bettie!! hope both you and she recover from the trauma.. you take care of yourself. time is the best healer and things will improve with time.
best wishestomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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i always want to go through your diary from the begining but now it is 183 pages.. so difficult to find so much time.. you are a lovely and compassionate human being bettie.. dont let negative thoughts overcome you.. ultimately it is us as individuals to decide what is the meaning of recovery for us.. we have to be honest and judge ourselves rather than somebody else doing it.. hope to catch up with you in chat some time.. i think you are true.. we are more like a family here and if one slips, it affects others as well.. but then others come and lift the person back and take him/her along again.. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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