[sierra2222]

Hi. I’ve been gambling since I was a kid playing poker at family parties with change that I had saved up. Then 20 years ago I got hooked on slot machines.
I’ve tried to quit on my own but yesterday I really messed up and realized I have no control and I need help. I attended my first GA meeting today and it was a relief to connect with people who understood. I never want to gamble again, but I have said this before and then ended up in a casino again when I have more money and the shock of the loss has faded. I hope I can fight the urges when they come back. This is the first time in 20 years of knowing I have a problem that I have reached out for help and support. Before I thought just “not thinking about gambling or trying to forget my mistakes” would fix this addiction.
The urge would always come back and I felt like the only way to get rid of that feeling was to gamble. I justified it with being more motivated to work when I lost money.
I am thankful I found support online and I don’t feel so alone now.
I had the urge to gamble again today to try to win my losses back with the small amount I have left, but instead I cut my debit card up and transferred the little money I have left to another account that I can’t withdraw from. I hope I stick with this and don’t lose control again.

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