[sarahluna88]

Absolutely.. I’m gamble free since my first post on this forum. That was the 2.11.23, and my life turned into so much better in every aspect. I bought my all the things I always wanted but never had the money for them- cause I planned it in for my gambling dramas.
Thank you all 😊

[sarahluna88]

You keep this forum running, that’s very helpful cause every day I look at my mails I see posts from you. That’s a very good reminder 😊

[sarahluna88]

Kin is right about frequently posting, daily might be the best. I read many posts via email, alone this helps me to stay connected with my plans for life. Thanks

[sarahluna88]

Thank you, I’ll do 😊.

[sarahluna88]

Yesterday I had an appointment at a psychiatrist because of my addiction problems. He said „gambling addiction isn’t a reason for not being able to do normal work and living..“
In the first moment I didn’t know what to say to him, but then I told him, gambling addiction was the first reason I thought about ending my life (!!!)
When you crush your plans again and again, gamble all money away- every month, it will bring you to depression, it lets you steal in supermarkets for food, you won’t be able to pay your bills and you will loose your flat if it comes really bad. The whole day after that appointment, my emotions were down in the basement. It had took all my energy away, after I talked to this guy. But after some sleep, it is better today ..

• This reply was modified 1 year, 5 months ago by sarahluna88.

[sarahluna88]

Hi Jasmine 😊, I‘m happy to read your comment..
since I started writing in this forum, a lot has changed in my life. The past years I’ve always had „gambling attacks“ which came over me spontaneously when I was in an „emotional overload“.
All my good thoughts and plans were destroyed in a few seconds when I went to a casino page for „just playing a few euros“.. when I started playin, I played till the last cent was gone.
In this state of mind I forgot all important things in my life, priorities changed immediately.
To write all my thoughts and my stories, helped me to understand and to recognize what’s going on. I always knew that it was nonsense to gamble all my money away, but I didn’t realized it that way as I did when I read all my postings and looked at them from a „higher position“ like an other person would look on it.
Often I gambled just once a month, but that was enough to destroy all- cause payday was also just once a month 😒..

How do you came to this forum? Are you a new member? Tell me about your experiences with gambling if you like 😊

[sarahluna88]

Today I’ve bought the new IPhone, for 1400.-
I thought about hours if i should do this. I pay in parts, over 10 months. In my gambling times I’ve burnt 1000’s of euros over jears, often in one day. Its the first time in my life where I buy such an expensive phone like this. My mind is changing in a better direction i think..

[sarahluna88]

Today I had a very good expirience in the supermarket.. my grandmother gave me 100€ to go and buy some stuff for her. I went into the store and lost the money on the floor.. I didnt recogniced that I lost it, and went through the store. When I wanted to pay i realiced that I’ve lost the money.. I ran through the shop super stressed looked on the floor everywhere but there where so many people and i thought there is no chance to find it. In this moment a man came to me with the money in his hand and gave it to me (!!)

One day in past i decided not to take any things which are not mine ore steal anything again. Since this moment I always got everything back I’ve lost myself.. it proofs for me that some kind of karma is real

[sarahluna88]

Thank you, and happy New jear 2024 😊 the thoughts two days ago went away after I told you. Luck this time. I’ll look for the groups.

[sarahluna88]

Dear kin, today was the first day i thought about casino. I dont know why exactly. Maybe cause I did it every jear until know. Writing it down will help me stay strong, and not destroy my plans for future. It is a lot easier to write here than to call someone and tell him about it. In the past, i wasnt able to turn when such a feeling came up. I didnt like to talk about it. I just liked to gamble, instantly. I’m glad that i found this forum- especially for moments like this. Thanks, Sarah

[sarahluna88]

Thank you kin. Payday was yesterday. At the moment a lot of things are changing in my life. My mom left Austria and went to Hungary- since that time i have a better relationship to her. In a few months i will leave my grandparents where I live with at the moment. This fakt make feel my life really much easier. And i know that in near future its just me in my life, no one else i need to think or look for. That situation made is easy for me to stop gambling, cause its the first time in my whole life that i’m alone. I’ll start a YouTube chanel with reaction content, when i’m in the new flat. This idea helps me to leave the money where i need it. And the dentist to. My money is on bank account now, but to save it for sure, I’ll go there today and bring it to my boyfriend. Thank you

[sarahluna88]

Sorry for double posting- i just wanted to edit something 🙄

[sarahluna88]

I’ve looked in my bank account when the last casino payment happend- it was the 2.11.23
about two months ago now. This is the longest episode of time in the last 5 jears. I’m happy that i’ve got to this point in my life, where i feel that i’ve got some kind of control over my behavior. I think its connected to my stress level. In the past that level was always high, and i had many problems in every part of life. Today there are no things in my life which i dont like in my life. I worked hard to get to this point.

My first topic in this forum was also started on 2.11.23

[sarahluna88]

I’ve looked in my bank account when the last casino payment happend- it was the 2.11.23
about two months ago now. This is the longest episode of time in the last 5 jears. I’m happy that i’ve got to this point in my life, where i feel that i’ve got some kind of control over my behavior. I think its connected to my stress level. In the past that level was always high, and i had many problems in every part of life. Today there are no things in my life which i dont like in my life. I worked hard to get to this point.

[sarahluna88]

Thank you for your words

• This reply was modified 1 year, 6 months ago by sarahluna88.

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