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Day 174 of staying gamble free.

Just checking in. The urges continue to be there but then I come and read my journal here and it sets my mind right.

I have paid off a significant amount of very high interest rate debt – Mostly using the proceeds from house sale. Almost every single penny now that I make from work is going there as well. Finances are being handled by the family, I cannot access my bank accounts without them knowing. So that’s good. At this rate, likely by end of next year, I will have paid off my debts. Let’s see what the future holds.

Journey continues. One day at a time.

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Thank you for the kind words. I was very heartbroken and devastated the last few days. I keep seeing him everywhere and in everything I do. I am slowly recovering and accepting the grief. He lived a very comfortable life and had all our love showered on him. Hopefully he is in a better place. May he rest in peace.

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Thanks jvr3419.

My pup passed away earlier this week. I made a promise to him that I will not gamble ever again and I intend to uphold that promise as long as I am alive. He stood by me for a long time through all my ups and downs and I forever will be grateful for his love and loyalty.

Day 160 gamble free. One day at a time!

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Thank you Kin. Tyson is 12.

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Day 154 of staying Gamble Free

It’s been two weeks at the new job. A lot of learning and meeting new people. I am staying extremely busy. This is a good thing as I have absolutely no avenue for any other thoughts.

My dog is still holding on. None of his chemo treatments worked. This is very depressing. But I can still see that my dog wants to live even through all the pain and suffering. He is I think showing me the way to overcome my challenges and failures. If he can find a way to live and be cheerful through his debilitating cancer, I too can live through my “cancer” (gambling).

Please pray for his recovery. Thank you.

One day at a time.

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Day 142

Just checking in on a Sunday
Staying gamble free. One day at a time.

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How are you doing crusing? No recent posts. Hope you are well

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Day 136

My dog is managing on. Everyday with him is a bonus day. Thank you Lord for keeping him around.

I got the new job and will be starting next week. I have created a new bank account and given access to my parents and sibling to keep me in check. My paycheck will come to the new account from this new job. I am very thankful to God for bringing this new job my way. It pays much higher than my previous one and will allow me to live more comfortably and pay off debts faster.

One day at a time

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Thank you jvr3419. I appreciate your empathy and support. I am treating every single day I have with him left as a bonus day. I am glad that I have got to spend a lot more time with him through Covid stay-at-home. I now have him on painkillers and letting nature take its course. As long as he is eating and able to tolerate the pain, I ll continue to enjoy his company. I know the days are numbered and I am grateful for every single day.

I am on day 122 of staying gamble free. I have interviewed at a different company recently and will likely get an offer soon. Fingers crossed. It pays slightly better than my current job and I would like to switch as it will help pay off my debts faster.

One day at a time!

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Thanks jvr3419 and Losingitslowly,
Hope you two are doing okay and staying gambling free.

Today marks my Day 115 of staying gambling free.

Personally I have been very sad given my dog’s cancer. He hasn’t been responding to any treatment (cancer treatments are very expensive) and this is very upsetting. I love him so much and I don’t want to see him go. He is still eating well and with pain killers he seems to be coping. Not sure how many more days he’ll stay that way.

On the finances front, I have had a lot of urges in the past week. Racking up these huge medical bills is probably what is pushing me to think of gambling again. I know I can’t gamble. I just have to work hard and save up and pay off my debts including these bills.

God please give me the strength to endure the pain and suffering. Please give me the strength to stay gamble free. Please help my dog with his recovery.

I will stay gamble free. One day at a time!

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@jvr3419 Excellent to hear. Congratulations!! Woohoo!

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I made a few more debt payments this week. Feels good. Long way to go still!

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Day 105.

I almost relapsed this week. But I caught myself when I was having those thoughts and then browsed the forum and read through my own posts and that saved me. One day at a time.

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Hi Sjc1,

I am keeping myself as busy as possible so that I don’t even have time to think about gambling. Keep up the fight! You got this. One / at a time. 🙂

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Just came by to post on Day 100 of being Gambling free.

Probably the hardest thing I have done in my life so far. I am tired and losing strength to stay away. But I must continue to persevere so that I don’t get sucked into gambling- this life destroying force.

One day at a time!

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