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well done on 2 years KathrynThings are better without a bet on today.
Good reading Geordie,
I think when I had urges to gamble after being a long time free I always reminded myself of the **** that gambling did , even when winning it was only until the next bet , I remembered of what I heard in the GA rooms and weighed it up against having that bet. Not having that bet meant I could do things but as Ive found out now once back in the grips of gambling everything closes in and you get trapped into not only losing valuable money but time , things not being done and people on your back, most of all the sheer weight of feeling so annoyed with yourself and carrying that around with me and hiding it from others, the worst thing for me is on line gambling I vowed Id never indulge and just be a “bookies” head but it got me on my latest trip ( a four year trip) all I can say even though I knew I couldn’t win I hated the emotional and physical drain it was putting on me and most of all the killing of my confidence , drive and ambition.
It was a time of being unemployed and that was a great excuse but even from a financial view if I had of spent that money on the correct things I wouldnt have caused so much financial damage ….pure madness , anyway its gone , Im here and staying free like you said , anythings better than that beaten feeling.
Things are better without a bet on today.Hi Phillip,
Just on the GA matter , its good to go to a GA meeting theres nothing to fear , you dont have to go back , you dont have to speak , , nobody will ask you who what or where you are , you can share or you can choose not share , its good to listen and take advise , you will be suprised how talking about your gambling problem will make you want to share more , talking about it gets it out of the system makes you open up to stuff you cant admit to , GA meetings are meetings , be yourself and be open minded and try and return gambling free to your next one. I havent been to a meeting in months …They know I know wheres it at , they also know I know where to go IF i want it !!!!Theres no search parties or people calling ….. Things are better without a bet on today.***** Linnie,
I really enjoyed reading your experiences and others who have posted.
As a compulsive gambler I know one thing that I have learnt in recovery and out of recovery; Look after yourself I know me and I can only make it work for me , nobody knows I am a compulsive gambler and if they did they still wouldnt understand.Take it one hour , one half day , a day at a time.Find something to occupy the time you would spend gambling if you find other things too much of a “punishment” or things suggested by others as ” not cool” or “not your own” and in fact make you want to return find something that YOU want to do that will take your mind and give you that break needed to get over the gambling urge periods. Things are better without a bet on today.I moved what i had written to the intro / new members, good reading thanks.
Things are better without a bet on today.– 6/3/2011 11:53:13 PM: post edited by PaddyDublin.