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Hi Liz yes living is very very difficult at times and i sometimes don’t want to wake up but when i look back, i thank god that im still here. We have so many things to live for , like you say your daughters , grand kids and friends . I know its not easy but try and look at the big picture and embrace the good things in your life. 🙂

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STOPTOBER day 8 and £8 in the charity kitty. It’s never easy being an addict and wanting to get that adrenaline rush but give yourself some reasons not to and try and focus on them . The urge will go not right away but it will go eventually.

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STOPTOBER day 7 and £7 in the kitty, been to work today , feeling good at the moment STOPTOBER going well i originally started the month with the intention of not drinking alcohol but it’s even better abstaining from 2 addictions. 🙂

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STOPTOBER day 6 and £6 in the kitty, looking forward to today thats how much my life is changing hence the early post. 🙂

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Well done Craig your doing great almost at the 3 week mark . 🙂 One day at a time is certainly working for you .

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Hi lizbeth its good to get things out and i totally agree our childhood does shape us, keep going to the counseling and you will feel better for it .

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STOPTOBER day 5 and £5 in the kitty, just thoroughly cleaned the oven inside and out took ages but it looks great . Got that you deserve a bet/ drink feeling for a reward for working hard today but im not acting on it . The feeling of waking up tomorrow sober from not gambling or drinking to oblivion is my reward and i can function properly and normally tomorrow.

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STOPTOBER day 4 and £4 in the kitty , after my post yesterday i did have urges and today as well but overcame them by thinking it through, it’s so much easier said than done . Actions do speak louder than words, milestones are too much for me i have to think in lamp posts , at least i can see the next one.

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STOPTOBER day 3 – i can understand vera’s post but im not giving up that easily almost before iv’e started. So onto day 3 and no urges just positive thinking today.

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I know the big push on tv etc is smoking and alcohol but why shouldn’t we be involved. To make it more worth the while lets all pick a charity and put a £1 in a jar everyday of october we don’t gamble and at the end of october donate it to our chosen charity. Let me know if your with me ?

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A small and insignificant disappointment almost had me driving 35 miles away to a bookmakers for a brief moment to escape about half an hour ago. Thought about what would happen if i lost and if i had won , both equally would have set me back . The guilt either way would have been too much. I have targets and aims both small and big and i want to keep them up.

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Things are going well i paid a chunk off my debt last week and have no urges , keeping busy and on top of my life .

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Brain whatever telling me to gamble , i’m telling my brain no, all the reasons not to far outweigh the reasons to do.

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All going well , the exclusion banned from one , banned from all works i tried last night to set up an account online and got knocked back every time. Also got asked to leave a bookmaker s last friday , embarrassing but what i needed .

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Tonight, been to mixed doubles badminton night, thoroughly enjoyed it , a good 2 hours (except a rest between games) sometimes. Got my haircut this morning and pottered around the house the rest of the day, hope this isn’t boring anyone.

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