[Monkey22]

Hello, 

Thanks for the response.  Yes, I’m hoping that this time around is different in that I think I’ve finally accepted that I am an addict, and need to change my behavior and figuring out my triggers.  It’s been about a month so far, and I feel like I’ve done more this time around than the past two times combined.  My wife is also taking a very active role.

My post was already long, so I left some things out.  I haven’t fully identified triggers yet, except possibly various stresses in life all adding together at one moment to create a relapse.  For example, the latest round came during the closing of our first house, the potential of having a second child, a new job, my dad retiring, and my daycare provider moving and doubling my commute.

There also seems to be a tie to the weather.  The last two rounds have been in the late fall and winter months, seemingly when I’m stuck inside, and as you said, bored.  The summer is usually fine because I’m more active outside, plus there aren’t really any sports on that I’d watch (I hate baseball and golf).  So, the plan for next fall is to join some rec sports leagues, which I used to do when I was younger to help pass the time and hopefully release some endorphins as well.

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