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Hi Romana,

As a compulsive gambler I would never set out to lose on purpose however I now know I would always lose because I can never stop, while I actively gamble I cannot stop gambling and because of that I can never win and will always lose because I am a compulsive gambler.

Really wish you my very best in life and to your family, hope you have or can get things going back in the right direction.

Take care

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Keep plodding away iamhere, you are doing great and as you know on the right path, it is hard and we have all wasted so much time and money, the important thing is not to waste any more moving forward, keep up the great effort and wish you well, enjoy life it doesn’t last forever !

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Great to hear your progress risingphonex and it seems you are enjoying your gamble free life as you should be, you are an inspiration to many, wish you well and keep doing the right thing one day at a time, take care.

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Kin,
So glad to see you doing well and keeping posting my friend, life is very tough at times and we have to keep digging deep to survive, keep fighting on, you are a great person with a kind heart and a loving soul never forget that, take care and always wish you well.

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Hi Sarah, well done on your gamble free time, keep up the great effort, enjoying life as we should without this addiction, take care and have a great day.

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Hi Marcus, I hope you are keeping well, you are 100% correct when you say “gambling was kind of like being in a prison” never a truer word spoken, it consumes us, controls us and takes over our lives, keep staying gamble free one day at a time, all the very best.

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Kin my very good friend how are you keeping, so good to still see you around and posting, hope this finds you well, always love reading your posts and inspirational shares, take care and speak soon.

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Hi Gustav, Enjoy your golf and the family BBQ priceless moments we never appreciate while gambling, have a great day and wish you well.

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Hi Cruising, I hope this finds you well, when we gamble it always only ever ends one way as we all well know, pain, hurt, suffering for everyone, I know I am a better person when I dont gamble, we all are but still we slip up, you are back on track and thats all that matters, keep working hard at staying gamble free and enjoying that life, its so much better than the alternative again as we both well know, take good care and wish you well.

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Hi notyoung, so very true my friend the pain of regret is so much worse than the pain of discipline, keep staying strong and remember we just need to do what we know makes us happy, staying away from that next bet, if we start again we know where it leads us………. misery and despair, with no hope !

Wish you well and keep enjoying life as always one day at a time

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Kathryn my dear friend, what timing you have and thankyou very much for your post, I really hope you are keeping well, always loved sharing with you.

Quick update but will promise to post more tomorrow, life (for all of us) is full of troubles and there have been many these last few months, I haven’t been dealing with them very well and yesterday I relapsed in a big way, I don’t know why I always go back to what I know will always cause me (and others) pain and suffering, I promise you all I am not a bad person and also promise I have a good heart (deep down).

I know not what to do but I do it anyway, it’s all me no one else to blame, you know what I also know and can see when I don’t gamble I am such a better person and human.

All will be well I will keep trying and this time do things differently, hard pill to swallow with the damage I did yesterday but I must change and I will.

Thanks again Kathryn for your perfectly timed post its just what I needed, always wish you well, take care and my best to you and the family.

Wish each and everyone of you my very best.

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Thanks for the posts all, really is appreciated.

Kin to answer your questions I am not coping very well, I know what I need to do, I will get into a good mind set and will continue to fight this addiction, we all know it kills us in many different ways, the simple things in life are so very wonderful but our gambling hides all the beauty.

Take care all and I will share again tomorrow, been a very long hard day, wish you all well and never stop trying.

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Hi Kin, losingitall and Velvet, its so nice to read your posts and being very honest I wasnt going to post on here but always feel the need to help and support others when I see posts on this forum (I am very slack and dont read enough currently but promise that will change)

Being honest since my last post I have had a total nightmare, as always mostly my own doing, always working hard and paying the bills as I always have but been in and out off gambling not seeming to exhaust my addiction as I know I can with the correct tools.

I am opening up with all my heart now and that wasnt the plan and I am in risk of exposing myself but I will take that chance in the hope this share helps others as I also known it will help myself, I have to start by saying many times I have been a compulsive liar (the reason I state this is because this post is 100% truth and you will have to take my word on that), I have said many times if I dont stop gambling like I did it will kill me…..well that statement is so very true !

About 7 weeks ago I went on a mad gambling spree (usual excuses many family and also work stresses I couldnt cope with life and just hit my go to setting….gamble like a mad man to get my brain out of the real world), anyway this went on for 3 x days and the next morning in the early hours I had a heart attack at home in my bed, I got rushed into hospital the usual test, ECG showed I had a heart attack, the troponin levels after 3 x blood test were all sky high indicating I had a massive heart attack and being truthful it felt that way I can promise you, so I was in hospital awaiting an angiogram (where they put a camera in to check your heart), the consultant said you have either serious heart damage or we may be lucky and just have to insert a stent, they did what they did and when carrying out the angiogram (I was awake and talking to the consultant), he couldnt see any heart damage and when the dye went through the arteries all flowed free and well, when he was talking to me he couldnt really explain but put it down to massive stress and suspect causing one of the arteries to close and then release at a later date, I have to 100% put this down to the stresses my gambling caused me, I share this to explain this addiction kills us in many different ways, I could never believe my gambling would cause me to have a heart attack and nearly kill me, but it does and we dont understand the stresses we put on the body, I am not old I dont mind sharing I am now 45, this recent turn of events really knocked me for six, I cannot lie there were other things adding to the stresses in my life but my gambling was the main issue and I know that foe sure.

I am slowly on the mend, but really felt the need to share this as it is so important to explain, gambling can and will kill us in many different ways if we let it, I will keep trying to stay gamble free one day at a time but currently I am just trying to stay alive one day at a time but by staying gamble free that helps my cause.

Always wish you all my very best

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Hi Dark Energy,
You are doing great, you keep coming back and sharing and that is massively important to a person’s recovery, never stop trying to stop, always keep coming back no matter what, your shares are a true inspiration and encouragement to many people me included, it is a work in progress but if we really want to stop thats all that matters.

Keep going Dark Energy as always one day at a time.

Take care and my very best to you my friend, thankyou for always sharing.

Wish you well.

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Just for today I didn’t gamble, today was amazing I spent time with my son just doing normal stuff and really focusing on him we had a fantastic day, usually I would be with him but my mind would be else where, see how much I was up or down from the many sports bet I had made earlier in the day and then getting wound up about what was going on with them.

It was a great feeling today, peaceful, nice, stress free and priceless.

Today I see the difference between gambling and not gambling, I am very grateful to be alive and still have my wife and kids in my life.

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