[Lisaann]

hi all, its been a long time since ive been here. life has been very hard. i wont bore you all with the details. i went through a very dark period but im back and ready to work on a better me again. hope you are all doing well.

[Lisaann]

hi guys

im doing ok. still gamble free. life has been really busy. work has been manic with all the new gdpr regulations. im also training someone new. refraining from gambling is getting easier. im also trying to have a bit of a life. im putting myself out there a bit more.
hope to hear from you all soon xx

[Lisaann]

one day at a time is how im thinking about it. the hardest part is trying to retrain my brain to think about things other than gambling. its getting easier to distract myself when i feel the urge so all the help and advice ive had from here must be working, and i thank you all for that. i feel like im in a good place at the moment.

[Lisaann]

hi monica,
no i didnt feel excluded in chat, it was nice to meet you. i hope youre doing ok?

i can finally say ive been a week gamble free. its been a hard week. theres been lots of ups and down. my emotions have been all over the place. ive feel i have learned a lot about myself this week some of it i dont like. ive got a lot of work to do on myself aswell as my addicition. im a work in process. but im still pushing towards being the best version of myself.

[Lisaann]

today has been a day full of stress arguments and tears. im currently sat in my bathroom so i can get just one minute of peace. ive been thinking a lot today about how my life is and who i am as a person. ive got a lot of areas of my life to work on. but im determined to carry on my recovery and to make my life better. ive already started to make more effort in my personal life, also with my friends so im not so isolated. today is just a stumbling block that i need to get passed to continue on my journey.

[Lisaann]

Hi IDI No I didn’t feel excluded don’t worry. Yesterday was hard but i managed to get through it. It’s day 5 today. We’re going to go and get some treats to have a film day. Hope you also have a good day. Speak soon xx

[Lisaann]

Thank you velvet and IDI. I’m still going strong. I’ve had a quite a few thoughts and urges to gamble because that’s what I normally do. But I’ve managed to distract myself, i went for a walk to clear my mind I’ve been reading stories on here.

One day at a time.

[Lisaann]

Hi Ciaran

I’m new here also. My story is much like yours. Well done on seeking help. Like IDI said put blockers in place so even if you get the urge to gamble you can’t. Explore all your options and we’re all here if you need us.

[Lisaann]

Hi velvet

Thanks for replying. I couldn’t gamble even if I wanted to. I’ve put a blocker on all my devices. I’m feeling really positive today. Lots of positive thoughts very little anxiety. Today is a good day.

[Lisaann]

Today was the day id been dreading… payday. Usually I’d pay all my bills and then gamble the rest. All my wages would be gone by 10am. But so far I’ve managed to resist any urges. I know it’s still early in the day but I’m proud of myself.

[Lisaann]

It was very nice meeting you too IDI and Laura. It was good to see things from another perspective. Thanks for all your advice I really appreciate it xx

[Lisaann]

Thank you for the welcome maverick. It really does help knowing you’re not alone. My life before I realised I had an addiction was pretty normal I work a lot I have a family but I think part of why gambling has become an addiction is because I don’t take time for myself. I don’t have a lot of friends and it in a way what made me happy.

Thanks for your reply i-did-it. I have the same experience with my anxiety. Today has been a struggle for me. I have had huge urges to gamble and then anxiety about the urges. So far I have managed to resist the urge and I’m proud of my resilience so far. What I’ve realised on my short journey so far is that I am enough, and I just need to take time for myself sometimes. I don’t need to do and be everything for everyone. It’s ok to falter as long as you keep working on being the best version of yourself. I look forward to getting to know you all x

[Lisaann]

Hi Sara j, thanks for replying. I finally feel like I have clear thoughts about my addiction. I was in denial for a long time over it. I was kidding myself thinking it was still fun. My anxiety has been getting worse and I knew I need to get help before it consumed me. I’m very fortunate to have a supportive family who all want to help me beat this. I know it’s an on going process but I’m just taking it one gamble free day at a time. This is my second day gamble free so far. It’s good to know I’m not alone on this journey.

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