[JohnNobody]

” I’ve managed to survive without gambling.”

And at some point you will manage to thrive without gambling 🙂

[JohnNobody]

Great you did the walk! So positive for all and everyone concerned. And good to read that everything is “good” this year I am going to do something more with Cancer Research UK. This awful disease destroyed my mum. Every little helps. Wear that t-shirt with pride!!!!

[JohnNobody]

Had strong urges at different points today. Do I learn NOTHING from my disgraceful past!! Did not follow through on them though. Just angry that they persist. No gambling today. Instead I just had a slob of a day intermittent with bouts of work. Time for a Netflix movie now then at some point before 5am try sleep.

I detest my addiction to gambling. I did forward think though to how I would feel when I loose (I always lost) and thought back to 10 days ago when I blew my brains out online. The sick terrible feeling that has taken over a week to shake off. Gotta keep at this. No choice!
Keep fighting everyone in your own way and with your own very unique battles!!!!

[JohnNobody]

Brilliant Micky Brilliant! Your on your way again! Shows real strength after everything you have been through. Today no gambling tomorrow no gambling and lots of things in between to aid the quitting process. Absolutely love the fact you are taking DIRECT ACTION!!! Come on fella this addiction aint gonna beat you 🙂

[JohnNobody]

Dont stress on the moment if GM program will or will not work. Instead give yourself a pat on the back for even applying to go into the program. Take it one day at a time for now and when the time comes to enter the program deal with that as it comes.
I do know from what I have read the GM program is as I said intense but has helped so many people overcome the addiction / to quit and to stay quit!

If /when you feel the urges to gamble then post here, hit up a phone line or speak to someone around you. Do anything and everything to overcome that one urge! It will pass they always do its just if we choose to act on them or not which makes all the difference!!!

[JohnNobody]

Its a personal choice but I would choose Gambloc personal for home use. Basicially soon as it is installed and you agree to the terms that is it! You will not get access to any casinos nor any gaming related sites. You will not be able to edit any of the settings nor will you be able to remove it.

The bigger packages (i think) are for corporates or for familys where there is a admin which kinds of defeats the object if your doing this solo. Go for the lowest cheapest package for 1 year.

Note that when gamblock is installed certain parts of your system will be locked. You wont be able to run CMDs (command line functions) or access the bios etc. This may have changed in recent versions but I know when I used it a few years ago it did not allow me access to certain parts of my systems which I needed for my work. But basically when its on your system that is it. No more gambling online from that 1 PC.

And if in doubt contact gamblock customer support they were in the past pretty speedy with reply’s during office hours. If anyone here has other info on blocking software of if I have quoted something wrong or out of date then shout up . As I said it has been a few years since I last used it.

Good luck with it all let us know how you get on!

[JohnNobody]

Thanks for the info and yes I can see why taking meds at set times can make a difference. I wont though be going back on the 20mg of the Citral …. totally did my head in and had awful side effects. The Z sleeping meds do help greatly though but I dont take them every night. Don’t want to replace one addiction with another 😉

[JohnNobody]

Hi well it must be something on your PC as I can say 100% this site / organization would never link to casinos. Maybe download Malware Bytes they have a free 30 day trial and it is the best to locate and crush any nasties on your systems.

This it is a superb move to be posting here and on other sites. Keeping yourself active with quit mode is a good way to help stem the urges and by going into the GM program well I have only ever heard good things about this. And by what I have read it is very intense. But good for you on putting yourself forward for this!

[JohnNobody]

Hi Butch, I did discuss sertraline with my doc but they have other side effects which could interfere with my work. He has dropped me to 10mg of Citalopram as opposed to 20mg. But as I said not taken them yet. Back at shrinks on Tuesday afternoon to look at it further. One thing about Citalopram is it is like chemical castration! Totally voids any feelings in that way. A well known side effect (one my Dr did not tell me when he put me on them) but lets. My mood is holding the past few days but know darker thoughts sit and wait like a tiger ready to pounce back anytime! thanks for you info ))

[JohnNobody]

Brilliant on the self exclusion! That is positive ACTION! I know what you mean about being sober. Mixing getting drunk and doing our brains in with the gambling is a horrific toxic mix!! Avoid it at all costs. Great to see you getting back on the wagon Micky!!! How are you doing today ? update would be good!!

[JohnNobody]

I am still doing okay. No gambling – but thoughts of gambling for sure every day! But without access to money (the plastic kind) its pretty hard. I know my niece would see hell freeze over before handing back my card to me at the chosen time.

I have earned good money this week and have it scheduled for payments out this coming Tuesday and Wed. It will leave me almost flat broke again but at least it is going in the right direction. Planning another trip abroad to see my Son.I hope I get there by the end of this month. But need to keep my work output high to make this happen.

I feel ok today if not somewhat bored but am going to bury my head in work and see what I can earn. Then maybe later go out for a few hours see my niece and maybe have a beer or 2. I have been on self imposed detox the past 10 days and my body feels somewhat fit again. I need to loose a few pounds though so thinking of joining the swimming pool / Gym.

Came of the meds I have a prescription for a lower dose of the same disco biscuits but am going to see how I go without them. No sleeping tablets the last 2 nights although last night took me a long while to finally sleep. I really do not want to slip back and end up back in that dark place!

[JohnNobody]

Hi Kieren you said in your post here “The link was advertised on this webpage we are talking on now”
there is NO way this site advertises any casinos or gambling sites. Not a chance. Did you actually mean this site gamblingtherapy.com ??

If you are seeing adverts here it means you must have some kind of malware on your local system. Certainly no adverts would be on here that advocate any kind of gambling. I would run a virus scan on your PC.

Also CG stands for compulsive gambler. Sounds like you are making some really good choices with handing your card to you partner and the Self exclusion. Keep at it you can beat this if you really want to!!!

[JohnNobody]

Just a note on blocking software. Gamblock is virtually impossible to uninstall unless you have very good coding / programmings skills and even then it can go horribly wrong and totally mess the system. Others I wont comment on. But gamblock is about as strong as it gets. Basicially when it is installed on your system ALL sites related to casinos/gambling are blocked including gaming forums and such like.

Nothing is ever 100% but it can give you another layer of cover and protection. But the real quitting starts from within. Self excluding from casinos is at the basic level and is a must in my book for any person who is struggling with an online based gambling addiction. But hey thats just me.

[JohnNobody]

Hi Adam it is good you are wanting to stop. I would say you need to self exclude yourself from that online casino today! If you dont the odds are you will deposit again. Keeping it open means that possibly somewhere deep down you know you will gamble again!

Exclude and do it now and exclude from any other casinos you may have open. Then install blocking software on your pcs to block ALL casinos. Without this you could stumble again. Wishing you all the best!!!

[JohnNobody]

Its well over a week since my last collapse. I feel okay about this. Had strong urges to gamble last night but could not as no way to deposit as I dont have my debit card. The urges passed and I woke up sane this morning. My work output is higher although I am being somewhat lazy watching too many movies and eating junk food. But at least I can eat!

Got rent due in a day or 2 it will be delayed again but no more than a week this time. Also have to send another child support payment which I need to cover next week. But none of this happens when I squander my money at the online casinos. I admit I miss the gambling … the thrill the chase and that worrys me. I hate myself for that. But I wont gamble cant gamble. Keep fighting good people!!!

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