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So many ads on the tv switch them over as they start putting ideas in my head! On a positive note almost done all my crimbo shopping well organised this year lol brought myself a christmas outfit to sad! Saving the rest for a good knees up with work! So no gambling for me! 🙂 x

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Thanks sad I find your advice very helpful Hun, still not gambled and excluded myself from every site possible! I have an iPhone and stupidly there’s no block I can find for them ridiculous! So with that said I am bearing in mind exactly the points you have made I’d rather spoil my family rotten then throw down the drain which is what you might aswell do when gambling! Payday has come and I’m trying to keep myself busy and occupied any urges I will come on here! Hope your well and doing good! X

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Really got the urge keep justifying in my mind! Not going to though! X

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True tester coming PAYDAY! Will let you all how I get on but determined to get through this!!! Christmas means gifts for family much rather treat them then throw in some greedy mans pocket! Just want to share so I change my pattern and habits! X

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I too have a gambling problem and would be willing to help and support people so this way we can support one another a good incentive if anyone is interested message me on here and we can chat!! X

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Hi sad many thanks for your reply and advice,
It’s day 3 and I have not gambled but as mentioned my habit is not a daily one but the true tester will be this time next month, having said that I am still happy about the fact I’m coming on here and trying to make the right steps as I know longer want this destructive force In my life I lay in bed last night realising just how bad and out of control things had got for me that realisation in itself is a scary thing, how I chose to spend hours on an online slot instead of spending with my family or friends, how I could not go to social outings as ‘I have no money’, how I’ve been unable to treat myself to a nice top or pair of shoes like I used to! That’s not living that’s existing! The only way I can receive help is by helping myself! Gambling is a nasty addiction and effects every aspect of a gamblers life not just financial but emotional,physical,socially and turns you into a lier! Luckily for me it did not make me in to a thief or make me commit a crime but its a very slippery road once you are on it! Trying to express my feelings in here and I feel it’s helping to actually see my own opinions in black and white and put things into context and perspective! Again 2 fingers to gambling that is very nearly costing me all I hold dear well I’m sorry your not winning you are not my world my be and end all my family on the other hand is!!!!

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Hi can I thought the same about our names lol great minds and all that lol

I ramble to so another thing we have in common lol

I do appreciate that once in recovery always in recovery like any addiction I suppose Hun,

I’m under no illusion how hard this will be but I’m prepared to do what it takes I’ve recognised some of my triggers boredom and loneliness and around the time I tend to think oh it won’t hurt once behaviour so hopefully this is beneficial in avoiding it!?
What do you find helps you can?
Again your reply is appreciated so thankYou very much 🙂 x

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Hi can many thanks for your reply much appreciated, not gambled today although saying that my problem isn’t a daily one it tends to be payday or times when I’m alone and bored, so I have bursts of it but loose a large amount all in one go then struggle until the next pay day and so on! I’m on my own at the moment so thought I’d check in here! I don’t feel sorry for myself just angry as I don’t understand why I do it! It just doesn’t make sense which is highly frustrating! How long did you have your problem and are you in recovery? One day at a time is the best approach I’m sure but I’m hopeful as I’m trying to make the right steps! Again thanks for taking the time to reply to me ! Hopefully I can put these difficult times behind me! X

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Hi Janet,
Thanks for your kind words,
So it’s the morning after and I feel like I knew I would a horrid person! I never want to go on an online site again I’m not stupid I know these places are designed to cash in and your ultimately destined to loose any which way you look at it! Loose in every sense not just money but your self respect! I ask if I’m a fairly intelligent person and I know all of this then why do I still do it? Madness! You know what makes me laugh Jeremy Kyle on tv was once a problem gambler and knows what destruction it can do then I ask you this why let a major bingo show sponsor your show and advertise right before you show starts and on every ad break? Just a little observation silly i know! Not gambled today and I don’t want to just feel angry with myself! How Is everyone else feeling today? X

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I find this addiction so hard to understand how it takes over all your sense of guilt,logic,reality there is just no reasoning!? For me personally I know what I’m doing is wrong but I convince myself other wise while in the process of gambling! It’s the aftermath that stings and hits you hard but then you return once again why? It don’t make sense I know that’s why they call it an addiction but knowing how you feel after why do I do it? This is the question I ask myself! I love my family more than anything in the world and this is what hurts the most the guilt of the the betrayal to them! I ask myself why do I gamble and the reason I come up with is not that i am greedy because its not about the money really is it? But I think it’s because I’m so very lonely! I am done with this destruction I don’t want to gamble truth is I never really have wanted to its just that little niggle of a voice that pops into my head when I’m sitting alone saying I’m bored I’m lonely what shall I do? I know £20 won’t hurt to play a slot game to pass the time then before i know £20 has turned into £300 and so on! I’m in debt which is ridiculous because now I’m not just lonely but broke as well as! I hate deceiving my family it makes me feel like such a bad vile person especially as I know how much they have done and do for me! But it’s never to late and this is why I’m here.! I’m done with gambling and everytime I feel lonely or think what can I do to pass the time I will come on here instead! I know I’m not a bad person and I want to stop before my problem esculates and effects others! So gambling I’m giving you the 2 fingers I do not need nor want you in my life you do not fill a void in my life you just make it bigger!!!!!

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