[iknowicandobetter]

Hi, everyone – I’m still here. I’ve been going to therapy once a week for this addiction, and I am really proud to say that I haven’t stepped foot in a casino in a little over a month. It was very hard at the beginning but I really don’t think much of it now. I think in a way I have traumatized myself from this awful experience, losing so much money in a short period of time. I just read all of your posts, and it’s very humbling to see all of this support and know that I (nor you), are alone. I will continue to keep everyone updated – some days are definitely easier than others, but I am taking it one day at a time. Love you all

[iknowicandobetter]

Thank you, you’re right. I need to take this one step at a time so that I don’t get overwhelmed – I will take that advice to heart and try to stick to that. I have always been a woman that’s tried to solve the worlds problems all at once and that’s just not realistic.

I do plan on joining a GA call here that happens on Wednesdays. Pair that up with once a week in person therapy and I think this may be exactly what I needed. Either way, I am committed to making a positive change and I will stick with it. As of today, I am now one week casino free with no urge to go, haven’t even thought of it. I am hoping that admitting it and facing what I have because of this over the last week is what I needed to get on track.

[iknowicandobetter]

Hi, Velvet.
Thank you so much for the kind words and support. This has been really hard for me. I finally fessed up and admitted my addiction and problem with some loved ones, some found out on their own. I realized through this that the ones that love me truly, they have been nothing but supportive with me, asking how they can help, even offering to go to counseling with me. The others have taken it almost personal, like I was intentionally trying to hurt or harm them, when that is really further from the truth. I am the one that takes this burden on, I am the one that suffers, and I am by no means pointing fingers or trying to play victim, this is the reality of what this situation is.

I have to learn how to manage stress better, than trying to find an outlet like gambling. I do have my first therapy session today which I am actually pretty excited about and in a way, relieved. Admitting my problem has in a way – freed me from the grips of the evil of gambling.

Your words have made me feel like I have more support, and that really does mean the world to me. The times when I thought I could never start a road to recovery for this because I was so embarrassed to ask for help or admit my mistakes, I realize my fears of admitting my addiction weren’t realistic.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart

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