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It’s been a while since I have last updated this, as I have been very successfully distracting myself from thinking about gambling in anyway at all. I thought I would do a little update as I have come a long way!
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nIt has now been almost 4 months. Will be 4 months in 9 more days. I have now successfully paid off one of my loans completely, and in the next 2 months will have all my debts paid. I am so very happy that I have finally gotten one paid off. I have been struggling to pay it off (It’s a payday loan) for the last 18 months. This has cost me a lot of money in that time, but now that weight is off my chest and I can now put that money I used to pay off that debt every month to paying off my other debts. Which will help in paying them off quicker!
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nOnce I have gotten those paid off, I am going to be creating a savings plan as lately I have been very ‘house crazy’ and thinking about my future a lot. I think I have gotten my future house completely planned out… Now to just save for it!
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nI hope everyone is doing well, and thank you all for the support on here!
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nBraydon

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It has now been 6 weeks since I last gambled. I was able to pay off a good chunk of my credit card this month which was really nice. I still don’t have a very large available balance due to how much above my limit I was (I’ve got like $10 available or something on it) but it is progress, and in the next few months I should be able to pay it off!

This feels like the first real step in the right direction. I am very proud of it. Another week until I get paid again, but this month the majority of my left over income is going to be going towards my payday loans instead of my credit card. That way I can start to have that weight off my chest…

Since my last post, I let my girlfriend know the last time I gambled. She was disappointed I had been lying to her about it, but it was very comforting seeing that she is now going to help me through the journey. I haven’t told her about the payday loans yet as I am still ashamed I let it get that far. Once I have them paid off, I think I will come up with the courage to tell her the full truth.

On a sorta unrelated note to gambling, Valorant private beta came out. I was big into CSGO so this was a very exciting time for me. I got a couple accounts for the beta so I have been playing that a ton, keeping me distracted in this time that we can’t really go do other things to stay distracted… One thing I really love about Valorant, related to my gambling issue, is that the skins you purchase for your guns cannot be traded (or gambled) which was a big part of the reason I started, and continued to gamble. They are also not doing loot crates which is also amazing as it seems that no matter how hard I tried, whenever I would play CS I’d end up spending money on cases and skins.

I’ve bought some skins for Valorant already, but only for the above reasons mentioned that they cannot be traded so I Won’t be able to gamble them. They are also going to be refunding the skins bought as “coins” in game to buy skins once the full game comes out. And giving 20% more coins as a thanks for supporting the game in private beta. So really, it pays to buy them! haha

Anyways. Yeah. 6 weeks! About 2 more weeks until I’ve hit 2 months!

Stay safe everyone!

[eLbee123]

It has now almost been 3 weeks. It is payday today, so this is when it is going to become difficult! However, I am almost at 3 weeks so I am now going to have that 1 month, 2 month, 3 month goal to go for!

I haven’t posted in a while just due to being really busy with all the COVID-19 business going on. I have also been distracting myself by playing Call of Duty Warzone for hours on end…

I am starting to get the urge to gamble more the last week or so… Specifically poker. I think this is due to being in the house almost 24 hours a day now… I am still working, but having to work from home for the next while.

However, once I get paid, I am going to be working even harder to continue to distract myself, and go do other things when I get the urge to gamble. Even if that means going for a drive at 2am…

Heres to staying safe, healthy and gambling free!

Cheers!
Braydon

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It has now been 6 days! Tomorrow will be a week! It has been a hectic last few days. Haven’t had too many urges to gamble though. Work has been crazy, as I work in IT and everyone is wanting to be setup to work from home. So that has been keeping me very busy!

I also have no money, so that probably helps with the no gambling thing. The real challenge will be at the end of the month when I have money available. But at that point I will be in the stretch to a full month and won’t want to let you all down!

I hope all of you stay happy and healthy in these chaotic times!

Regards,
Braydon

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Day 3 has now come and passed with no gambling. Today was a very easy day as far as urges to gamble. I didn’t have any this evening which is unusual for a Friday night.

That being said. The last 3 days (the day I decided I was done for good, I put my bank account $500 into overdraft, with no overdraft protection…) I’ve been really stressing about how I am going to pay my bills this next month coming up. I don’t get paid very much… Bout $1900 at the end of the month and another compensation check in the middle usually around $650. All my bills aside from rent come out at the beginning of the month… With my overdraft of $500 and trying to pay off my payday loans, it leaves me short on my monthly bills!

I am thinking about contacting the Payday loan company and see if instead of taking the amount we agreed on this month, taking half instead. And then add that onto next months payment instead.

I’ve got 2 small payday loans which I am working on paying off, and I owe my grandmother some money. I am trying to pay her back as quick as possible also, but this is leaving me with little to no money for any emergencies that come up through the month. I got myself into this mess though, and will be getting myself out in the next couple months! Unfortunately this Coronavirus growing concern has put a damper on my plans to get a second job to pay the debt off quicker as my province is pretty close to lock down I suspect. But, after writing this post I am going to be finishing up my resume to hand out anyway. Even if it’s just a couple weeks of working before having to stop, It’s still an extra thousand dollars or so that can pay a good chunk of my debt. Or at the very least… Leave me some money behind after paying what I need to pay.

Once all my debt is paid, I’ll be able to save lots of money. I am going to continue to work a second job at that point, as due to Coronavirus the mortgage rates have dropped by crazy amounts. This means that if I can save a bunch of money in the next 6 months hopefully we can purchase a home!

Anyways… That is sort of about my life after gambling! I am looking forward to continuing to share this journey with you all! Hopefully in 6-12 months time I will be sharing with you all, the news of purchasing my first house!

Thanks for reading!

Cheers,
Braydon

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Thanks Stevie! 

Due to the times of when the groups are on, I may miss out on quite a few. They usually start right when I get home from work so they are a tad difficult to make. However, I’ll still be very active on here as this doesn’t go anywhere even I don’t get to post until late! 

I will probably be doing daily posts for the next few weeks, and then from there they will be more spaced out as I begin to recover. 

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Well… It is now day 2. 1 more day than yesterday! Today the whole Coronavirus issue has really blown up in Canada after being categorized a pandemic. So that was a big portion of my day and thoughts. I work for an IT company, so most of the day people were calling in asking about how they can work from home just in case they end up needing to. They suspended the NBA, NHL and MLB seasons… which put a damper on my mood since I enjoy watching the Leafs and Jays and for the next possibly months I will be unable to get my Leafs game fix! That aside though, the day wasn’t bad for wanting to gamble. My mind was kept on other things all day which is normally how it is as when I am at work, I am distracted.

I got home and shortly after my girlfriend got home also. The dishes were piling up so I did some of them and when my girlfriend got home I chatted with her for a bit. I then went on my computer to play some Counter Strike. Started a competitive game and shortly after she asked me to do the dishes. I let her know I was in a comp match and would do them when I was done since it’s unable to be paused and I would get a ban for going AFK.

Well she got upset about that, and proceeded to do them herself. 30 minutes later I went to do the dishes and she was done them. Then the fight started. I do not do well at doing house chores. She gets the burden of them. This is something I am going to be working on along side my road of kicking gambling. When we fight though, I usually end up getting upset and it leans towards me gambling some more to distract myself. Instead of gambling, I decided to make this post instead. So this is just sort of a rant about me not doing chores good enough and a way to distract me from gambling!

Thanks for reading me ramble on 😉

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