[edhavana]

obviously im not capable to handle this by my own should i tell my parents to help me even though i know i will worry them alot……….

[edhavana]

today i manage to get a loan from the bank of 4k i deposited in a online casino and went up to 10k and 300 euro after 8 hrs i had lost it all before i started playing i promised that if i get up to 7k ill stop but i couldnt do it…. now im in a point that i dont know what im going to do with my self

[edhavana]

today i manage to get a loan from the bank of 4k i deposited in a online casino and went up to 10k and 300 euro after 8 hrs i had lost it all before i started playing i promised that if i get up to 7k ill stop but i couldnt do it…. now im in a point that i dont know what im going to do with my self

[edhavana]

thats true charles i had i bond of 10k and sold it cos i needed to pay someone supposed with the money that i had in june but i had lost them back then, so yes i had easy access to the money that i played these last two times, unfortunatly im still thinking i can get them back even though i never get out with the money i know its cray…..  And these last 3 months that i started gambling again i feel really bad i feel so down i really cant understand why i do this to my self

[edhavana]

so today i gambled again i have lost 1,640 euro i started playing at noon after two hours i had 4,300euro so i said lets stop so that for one time i stay up, and i did it i went out to the gym and after went to eat so that i stay out for few hours when i returned home i switch the laptop again and in 9 min on blackjack i lost them all still i cant believe it in 9 min, this is crazy every time the same. if i stop and withdrawal the money i will be upput i never do…..

[edhavana]

so today after 11 days no gambling i did it again im feeling so bad of my self i never learn the lesson. so around 12 noon friday i switch on the computer and said let me play some black jack but no roullette yes right…. after playing blackjack and losing 500euro i said the only way to win back is playing roullette and i deposit an other 2k and with this a played till midnight non stop going up to 4200 euro and back down i had the chance to withdrawal many times but i never did till i lost all, its always the same old story im feeling so weak with this gambling becide losing 2500 euro i had things that i was supposed to do and didnt do any and meet up with friends and i didnt go to…. i feel so weak with this addiction what im going to do i dont know ………..

[edhavana]

its really a bad habit this gambling it stays inside of you for life, unfortunately i reach a level that i never withdrawal any money cos i keep bet till i lose everything and thats the worst it can be. did you write your story on here?  

[edhavana]

In May 2020 i was spending a lot of time at home both my work/business where closed. I was buying most of the things online. On the 10th May I decided to give a try the online casino big mistake this time my max i can get from my credit card is 3k in 24hrs obviously i lost it all . i gave it an other try on the 15th,16th,17th doing this i lost 12k in total . After losing the 12k the online casino decided to block my account cos they understood i have a gambling problem first because of the amount of hours i do gambling , for not withdrawal and even if im up i never stop before i lose everything so they blocked me that was nice from there sidethey help me not to play for a month on the 20th and 21st June i locked in a other site and gambled an other 4,500euro both these days i could of cashed out one time with 8k and the other time with 10,540 euro but i couldnt stop betting before i lost all.. i started vomiting how guilty i was feeling and couldnt sleep i need to stop all short of gambling cos i will never withdrawal any money in my casa cos i never stop betting
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[edhavana]

me to much even more then before this time i didnt sign out but i was feeling so bad that i lost a total of 175k instead of buying an apartment that it kept me away for few months until christmas time in december 2012 when again just in less than a month i had lost an other 20k some where my savings and a loan again i sign for a year again. From december 2013 till 2017 i managed to lose an other 110k euro that puts me in a total of 305k euro in just 11years . thanks god my father helped me pay out the pill that i did in 11 years plus i had to do a bank loan plus i have to work all the time. After this situation i decided to find an apartment so that all the money i make from my work/business will go to pay that and i dont have any cash in hand in January 2018 i found one still getting built up that was good for me but in july 2018 i had some issues that made me loose control of my self and made me go back to the casino in September 2018but this time was the worst ever i play the money of the apartment and i lost it, i didnt go in with 100 euro or 500euro or 1000euro but with much more i lost all the money that had for the apartment i had to lose it all the money that i did from work/business plus again i had loaned money a total 60k i had lost just in less than two months these destroyed me this time finally i decided to sign out from all the casino for LIFE THIS TIME FINALLY I DID IT and go again to a GA meetings and i felt really good with this from october 2018 till April 2020 i felt much better obviously the thought of all the money thrown in the bin was always in my mind but i knew i couldnt enter in casino
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[edhavana]

hi ashamed
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nim in same situation where i lost control of myself the gambling addiction took over control and i lost alot of money much more than you, last time i gambled was last tuesday now im trying to stop, i start 13years ago when at that time i used to gamble much less than these last 4 years, about telling your wife or not first be sure your not going to gamble again cos if you tell her and then you gamble again after i thing in that case she will be right if she leaves you… thing about it for few days first
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