[edhavana]

after few month without gambling i fell again big time. i have lost again 15k in just 3days , the worst part is that at one moment i had 49k that i could have withdrawal it but i couldnt stop like i always do and in just 38 minutes i lost it all, i never manage to withdrawal the money even if i would have said before i start gambling that this time will be different but its always the same old story im feeling so bad of myself

[edhavana]

i was checking in the history of the casino were i was just playing an hour ago i got crazy the last 45min where i gambled and lost a total of 14k cos i was a little bit up till then the first 3 day i manage to keep a little bit up till today . then after i saw i lost two or three hand i lost my mind and started play huge. this is really bad still i cant believe it. im so disgusted of my behaviour

[edhavana]

hi after nearly 5 month not gambling i fell again big time ,a week ago a fixed deposit that i had done over ten years ago terminated closed and the amount of it 12k went back to my saving account where i have the card visa, imminently i started thinking about gambling so last thursday i started playing again till this morning i finished by losing all the 12k from my bank account. from thursday till now sunday i could have stopped with a plus with few thousand up 10 or more times but every time i continued playing till i lost it all. now im feeling really bad about my self i always loose control like im so stupid that i know that im going to loose it all but continue till im broke. monday i decided that i will go to stop all my bank cards i cant have them anymore i will use only cash. so that i never play online casino again…….

[edhavana]

i dont know but ones i start i make a disaster i mean i lost 4k in an hour, i stop thinking at that moment

[edhavana]

today after nearly 5 months not gambling i failed and gambled i lost 4k on online black jack. im feeling so much down

[edhavana]

Yes it will help, and i will be going to GA meetings to as i said i feel much better now i gambled them yesterday cos they gave them to me cos if not i wouldnt have done any deposit 

[edhavana]

so today at 9am i recieved an email from one of the three online casino that i have played with that i have 1,100 euro on account when i went home i switch my laptop and was true i checked and there was written 1k manual adjustment plus 100 euro bonus still i dont know what they were i play them went up to 3,100 till i lost them all but this time i felt different first of all i didnt do any deposit secondly i knew i wasnt going to withdrawal like always from the beginning so i just played them without any feeling last time that i gambled on the 11th July i felt it that my mind had change the way how it feels when gambling

[edhavana]

yes i could but there are other 300 sites if i want to gamble i feel the best thing is  to try to be storg and ever again enter in these sites

[edhavana]

I think this addiction is the worst one even worst then drags at least drags are against the law even if you can find them easily but still are against the law but all sort of gambling are welcomed from the government you see casinos and gaming outlets everywhere, advertisement, promotion nowadays even from your house computer and mobile it’s disgusting and more times pass more young guys are getting addicted to gambling and even if they don’t mention it on tv or newspaper but there are alot of suicide happening cos of gambling I hope that I will stay away from gambling from now on and same I hope to you

[edhavana]

so im not the only one that never stops and that i promise that when i reach a certain amount ill stop and im convinced that i would stop if i reach it , until i reach it and continue and keep lieing to myself

[edhavana]

i meant someone that doesnt withdrawal cos he cant stop betting cos i  can understand that you gamble to win your money back yes but that you are able to win as what happend to me 8 times from 10 and not stop until you lose all thta is insane. 

[edhavana]

I’m in a similar situation like you but I lost them in casino around 3 times the amount you lost the worst thing is if you try to get it back by gambling or by trying to get a loan from someone and try to invest them again cos you continue to lose as it happened to me. And the more you try the worst it gets

[edhavana]

I think I reached the worst you can get in gambling addiction I mean beside obviously suicide that thanks God that was never in my mind but yes if you don’t stop we can reach that level too, even I’m lucky that I do take drags cos I did I can’t imagine my self high and gambling. If there is anyone that is similar to me that reached the level of not withdrawal not even if he won big let’s say 6k or 10k in a night I would like to chat with him or her hope to hear soon from you

[edhavana]

And two from three online casino that i have played with have blocked my account them self cos they have noticed of the addiction promblem i have imagine how bad i am to be blocked…

[edhavana]

today im feeling strong that im not going to gamble again cos its obvious that im out of control and that even if i win i dont stop and it doesnt make any sence , i started gambling online from last May and lost huge amounts in just about 10 times that i have played from these 10 times 8 off them i was up few thousands but never had the power to stop and withdrawal until i lost all off it . Yesterday before going to get the money from the bank to put on my account i had been watching blackjack and promised to my self that when i reach 7k i stop i reached 10,300 k what can you want more than these 6,300 profit for the day but didnt stop again until i got 00,000 it like i want to destroy my self , by forse the drain is not working as it should i had been seeing what i did in less than 3 months i lost over 25k just in 10times playing i own money to the bank and my mother and even to my friend what a disgusting addiction is this and i cant stop thinking that in these last 3 months playing probable if i stopped when i had to i would have had now around 40k . so now i can confirm that thing change from last years to the worst i mean before i used to play cos i was running after my money but this year it looks like im not cos when i win i dont stop until i give it back to them…. hopefully at least i feel inside of me that yesterday was the last time
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