[Dave1]

Friday the 13th of August
My name is Dave, I’m a compulsive gambler, but I placed my last bet on August 12th of 2021.

There’s no revenge in gambling. Only tears.

[Dave1]

I’m a compulsive gambler, but I haven’t placed a bet in the last 27 hours.

[Dave1]

My name is Dave and I am a compulsive gambler. But I haven’t placed a bet in the last 15 hours.

[Dave1]

The urges won’t stop. There is no magical pill. Our brains are messed up. The brain of every addict is messed up.

I’ve quit smoking for over a year now and still have (bad) urges sometimes. The brainreceptors will always be there, that’s why; “once an addict, always an addict”. And that’s why we keep on relapsing.

Over time the urges will get less frequent and strong. But still we have to make the right choices. Surf the fuck out of the urge. Surf it till it’s gone.

• This reply was modified 4 years ago by Dave1.

[Dave1]

Life’s tough. Gambling is easy. There’s not a day that I wake up and don’t have the urge to gamble. Struggling every day;
– Whats the point of life?
– Why have I put myself in so much misery?
– Whats the point of stopping now?
– What does it matter?

28 now; single; never been in a relationship. Never wanted to; fear of commitment. I hate children, never mind having my own. I’m struggling to find a job I like. Never liked any job. Studying something I don’t like. I have a job I don’t like. I have a huge student loan. I see other people enjoying things like relationships, children, days out. I don’t like these things. I don’t have friends. No hobbies. No passion. No purpose in life. Surviving.

I really want to believe it will get better, but I doubt it will. It’s my character, something I am, I can not change myself. I feel different then others; sometimes better, sometimes less. I hate connecting. I hate social media. I don’t have any accounts. I’m a ghost.

Years pass quickly, I haven’t made any progress in 10 years. Stuck, I still feel like I’m 18. Body ages, my mind does not want to grow up.

These are all just thoughts that I’m having.. my brain is ruined.

[Dave1]

I’ve been an idiot by gambling my life. Taking huge risks, just to get my thrill. It was never worth it.. and never will be.

What’s money worth when your health is deteriorating?

Money does not make me happy.

[Dave1]

Gambling is a never-ending cycle. Why bother?

I was an insecure guy, young, naive. I did not have the knowledge. I did not know better.

Now I’m wiser and I don’t have to live life by the choices I made in the past.

[Dave1]

not gamble today

[Dave1]

Thank you Monica, It will be, I wont dissapoint myself or anyone from now on

[Dave1]

It’s my 28th birthday in a few minutes and the perfect time to end my gambling career.

Been gambling since 17 and now it’s over. Been there, done that.

It will be a great reminder for having my birthday as my day 1.

I’ve decided to sign up for the gym. In 2015 I was going to the gym every day for 3 months and didn’t gamble for those 3 months. So It’s definitely going to help me.

There is absolutely no benefits in gambling. Winning only leads to raising the stakes and lose it all eventually.

Thank you all for the supportive words.

Since 2014 I have handed over my finances to family members. Since 2017 It’s being taken care of by a financial administrator. I get a budget every day and been gambling that for the most of the time. Also have made a lot of excuses to get more like asking money for gas and gamble it. There’s no need to make excuses from now on as I won’t gamble again.

The reason for my gambling is dissatisfaction. Not satisfied with what has become of my life (despair). And at the end of the day it’s all the fault of gambling. The addict seeks support in the very thing that is causing the problems (Allen Carr).

After my 3 months not gambling back in 2015, I began to work more and my study didn’t go well and I stopped going to the gym, instead I began to seek relief in gambling again.

No more ~ it’s over. It’s time to learn how to live life.

[Dave1]

All the bad things that happened to me are because of gambling.

[Dave1]

Gambling is my escape, because I cant cope with life.
I need to learn how to live again. I just want to numb everything. I’m no better then a drug addict.

I gambled, I experienced it and now I’m done with it. It’s over.

[Dave1]

Accepting that life sucks and not to expect too much from it

[Dave1]

Gambling is addictive…

And gambling is made in a way that the player will lose eventually.

Ow and there’s the voices in your head that are arguing constantly= you get preoccupied with gambling

You have no idea what your getting yourself into, this is just the start…

Gambling is not a game and it isn’t fun.

[Dave1]

The truth is no one can help you, you need to do it yourself. You can see a therapist to discuss what’s going on in your head.

You can use this forum as well to post what’s on your mind, sharing thoughts can be helpful.

Every gambler has a different story, different circumstances, but we also have a lot in common; one of them is we’ve lost control…

It’s a disease and we can not control it. All the time and money invested in gambling, how can we ever have peace with the fact that it’s all gone. That’s why it’s progressive as well.

Gambling is not a game…and definitely not fun.

[Author]

Posts