[CraigMac6]

Here i am day 3. Still ready to take on the day without gambling. The more and more I think about my life, the more and more i realize it really impacted me negatively more so than I thought. Very recently i was to the point of gambling was the only objective of the day. I rarely accomplished much. My mood changed like a light switch depending upon the outcome of a game. I’m grateful for today and I’m grateful for the opportunity to make a change. Life is really short and I know when my time is up, I would have so many regrets if i lived my life with this addiction hindering me from my goals and dreams.
Hello iamhere, yes my families knows of my struggles. Have a great day all!

[CraigMac6]

Hello all,

Thank you iamhere for your post. You ask a very good question and the truth is, I’m not sure at this moment. I put blocks on my phone in the past but I always found a way to still gamble (using my computer- i couldnt find any blocks for this google chromebook i use). I think it might be the case with most of us but whatever block we have in place is a good tool but if we make that decision to gamble we will find a way. Instead I am going to focus on all the positive aspects of being free from gambling brings to my life. I am going to remember how gambling impacts my life in a negative way. I’m going to remember all the tough times that have been brought on myself and my family are mostly directly related to gambling. I know this is going to be very hard, but I’m in a place right now where I know that this is exactly what I need. I had one of my best days in a long time yesterday and it was directly a result of not gambling. I’m going to do it again today. Thanks again, iamhere. One day at at time!

[CraigMac6]

Hi!
I hope you are doing well.

[CraigMac6]

Hello all. I just wanted to post my promise to not gamble today. I have read over this thread and it just shocks me of the relapses. Man I sure talk a good game, but struggle with staying clean.
Focus on the steps to freedom that’s what’s important. Focus on the process! Enjoy life!

[CraigMac6]

Thanks for your post. Keep fighting the good fight.
Awesome stuff brother!

[CraigMac6]

Here for another day. Instead of focusing on the end goal of quitting. I’m going to focus on the daily steps that allow me to be gamble free each day.
Focus on the process and the end result will take care of itself.
Hope all are well

[CraigMac6]

Thanks for sharing. 3 through 5 very very true to me.
I know my brain is looking for the next addiction. It’s clear as day! Make it a healthy addiction!

[CraigMac6]

Good day all! Thanks for your post, Charles. A lot of good suggestions to help make it stick this time.
I have asked the sports book I use to permanently ban my account but they will not do so. I spend too much money for them to look out for me. They have told me they will close it but will open it if I ask.
As far as the blockers. I have gamban downloaded on my phone. That has been helpful in the past.
I am here today to make the pledge to not gamble. The more you put into something the more you will get out of it. I believe that. So as I was reading yesterday, I came across something I really want my wife to do. Write me a letter to tell me how my gambling has hurt her. I think this is great for me, to actually read the pain I’ve caused her. The complete truth. I also feel it will be great for her to express herself with no interruptions.
I hope you have a great day!

[CraigMac6]

As most of you can imagine, I have been gambling. My gambling is out-of-control, and it is impacting my life negatively in so many ways. It’s impacting my marriage it’s impacting my job, and it’s impacting how I even take care of myself. Some of the most simplest Daily habits of life are often times rejected because I want to follow a match. I wanna place a bet or I want to win some money. Gambling has really gotten to a point where it is no longer fun, well, it really was never fun to begin with as it was an addiction . I’m really here just a Post that I want my life back. It’s been so many years, so many wasted hours, so many wasted moments just logging into my phone to check a score. I’m not sure how I got to this point, and it’s a tough pill to swallow, but I know I don’t want to live my life this way. I have so much to live for. I have so much to be thankful for. My mindset completely changes when I’m not with gambling. I’m thinking of how to self improve. I’m thinking of goals. I’m thinking of earning money. I’m thinking of happiness thinking of family , all those things run through my mind when I’m not with gambling but when I gamble the only thing on my mind, is that next bet.
Today will be my first day without gambling in months.
Let’s keep fighting the good fight!

[CraigMac6]

Hello-

Here I am. I made it through payday without putting any of my money into a sports account that is currently closed. I am learning a lot about my addiction through therapy.
It has helped a lot.
Make the most of today.

[CraigMac6]

Hi Marcus.

I hope you are doing great.

Be well.

Craig

[CraigMac6]

Day 4. I’ve been really busy with my new career. I can only blame myself for the way things in my life have gone. I’m responsible. If I want to change, I have to think differently and make better choices. I have started counseling which has been great thus far. I have a session today and I’m looking forward to it.
One of my biggest motivations to stay away from gambling is I change who I am. Nothing else matters. Only my addiction.
To better myself, I have to hold myself accountable.
I hope all of you are well.

[CraigMac6]

I’m making a daily commitment to post here every day. It’s late and I almost didn’t get to it but I had to make my promise to stay gamble free today. Day 3: busy day. Active day, great day!
Have a good day all!

[CraigMac6]

Good morning. Day 2 begins. I called my sportsbook and asked for a permanent ban and they said that wasn’t an option. Of course it’s not, I’m a moneymaker for them and I’ve never been able to control my gambling; so it makes sense they want me to be able to open the book anytime.
I am focusing on what I can control today. No gambling. All focus. I did have a “that’s right” moment when reading the post that stated we can be strong 99% of the time but that 1%, that 1 time of weakness can ruin it all for us.
I am going to definitely download the gamban again on my phone. It helps. I just need something for my Chromebook.
Anyway, I have a busy day. Be great y’all.

[CraigMac6]

Thank you all for the advice. I thought of starting a new thread because all my relapses over the last couple months but I wanted to actually see all the failures. The old saying goes, it’s not how many times we fall but how many times we get back up…well I am here after falling yet again.
I have closed my sportsbook so many times but the always open it back up for me because who wouldn’t? I lose thousands of a dollars a year to them. I will reach out to see if they will ban me.
I will also look into the blockers. The blockers work great on my phone, but didn’t work so well on my Chromebook.
I do know I need to put barriers up, I do know I need to hold myself accountable. Most importantly I do know I want my life back.
Day 1. I’m ready for the fight, the fight for my life back!

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