[nickthefencer]

Thanks for letting me on this forum. I’ve been an active compulsive gambler on and off for 35 years. Attended ga, had some recovery but always end up back in the evil grips of this addiction. Lots of money and material things lost but what it’s done to me mentally is very severe. I’ve been back at Ga now 6 weeks and 6 weeks clean but 2 months ago I self harmed for a 3rd time after gambling and tried to commit suicide. I was found in my van with garden tools running. Luckily I survived but Rock bottom was a new rock bottom. I have come to realise that I need to address my addiction very very seriously, this addiction which causes stress, anxiety, debt, poverty, mental health issues, anger, insecurity, self harming, suicidal thoughts and many other negative feelings, I felt time is now to stop. I’m doing it one day at a time, in fact 1 hour at a time, I have urges but ga members, and app like this helps, gambling has tortured my soul, took me to the darkest deepest pit in hell, removed everything from my life, caused such pain that was almost unbearable, but my higher power came to me in my hour of need, so today I’m very slowly recovering. God grant me the serenity. Just for today

[Badsportsbettor]

Thanks for sharing with us.

That story felt very deep for me, although I never made an attempt trust me when I say this I thought about it often. The highs and lows are unbearable. I promise the feeling does get better with time and doing the things needed to get better. I would suggest therapy, for me it helped me understand things I have never really talked about before.

Stay strong and I’m rooting for you.

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