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23 May 2019 at 7:19 pm #51017Dazza85Participant
Today is day 1. The day I realise, I’m a compulsive and addicted gambler. I’ve lied to myself since the age of 18, I’m 33 now. I’ve always ‘liked a bet’. Football, horses, three card poker being my top 3!
Dont get me wrong, I always prioritise my bill’s.. but my gambling is secretive, nobody knows, just me.. I have a 4 year old daughter and a fiance, they deserve better.
Things got worse for me 2 months ago. I paid £10 and joined a WhatsApp subscription group, every day ‘tips’ – horses, football and greyhounds. For 2 months I’ve followed the tips religiously, losing and staking again and again ready for the win. That’s half the problem, my first day on the group I won a few hundred, chased that every day since. The group leader would say things like ‘bad day today guys, it will improve’. I found myself using credit cards to suddenly keep up the stakes every day.
Today is day 1, I’m thousands in debt now, today I blew hundreds in one go, like it doesnt even matter. I go on holiday next week, that money would of come in handy for my family ! I’m a dickhead, I’m ashamed of myself.
I’m here, I intend to log my journey.. day 1 I’ve just paid £9.99 and installed Gamban on my phone – the only real source of my gambling.
I need to get out of this, no more gambling for me!
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23 May 2019 at 8:05 pm #51018charlesModerator
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24 May 2019 at 6:50 am #51020Dazza85Participant
Thanks for the message RG. Your absolutely correct, I have to accept what’s gone is gone, moving to the future! No more chasing, no more gambling! I realised last night that Gamban doesnt work if your on a wifi, so in a panic I through my details in Gamstop. Hopefully that’s enough to prevent any hiccups down the line !
Day 2 today- it feels strange not waking up and spending my first hour putting together the days bets from the ‘WhatsApp group’. I dont need that! Today I will buy some flowers for the Mrs, rather than wasting it into horses..
Day 2! I’m on this !
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25 May 2019 at 1:29 pm #51021Dazza85Participant
A tough day. My first Saturday not gambling in about 13 years. I dont know what to do with myself. I’m actually sitting around (Its my day off work) thinking about betting. I cant because I installed Gamban on my devices, and just incase I self excluded myself before hand on all SIX online accounts i had !
The day feels shit. But i have not gambled ! I saw on Facebook the ‘WhatsApp group’ I had followed had a big win yesterday. Inevitable I quit and they all win!
I removed that geoup on Facebook, i dont need to see that shit!
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25 May 2019 at 4:13 pm #51022Amir ZakyParticipant
I think u did great by removing those groups from facebook and whatsapp, there is no need to keep those groups that may trigger u back. It’s also my day 2 and the weekend is not easy for me also.
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27 May 2019 at 11:55 am #51024Dazza85Participant
Thanks for the lovely comments guys – coming on here and reading them genuinely helps a lot ! So thank you 🙂
Today is Day 5 without a bet, my first gamble free weekend in pretty much forever. Saturday felt so hard I had it on my mind the whole day, but Sunday I took my family to the cinema and out for lunch! We watched Secret life of pets – usually i would of been scanning my phone for live results- but not this weekend! It felt great to sit and just enjoy time with my family.I think i have this, but in the quiet times of day I do still think about bets, think about the tipping group, but I have to remind myself for that 1 win they get, actually they lose 3 to 4 weeks before it !
1 week until our family holiday, just this week to get through in work. I applied for a 0% credit card so I can at least try to shift debt while I now spend the life time trying to bloody repay it all.
Today is day 5, and for the first time I’m starting to feel proud of my accomplishments with this!
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27 May 2019 at 12:27 pm #51025Had a bad dayParticipant
Well done on making it to day 5. That’s a wonderful achievement and you should feel so proud. The first week is so tough as youre having to find ways to fill the void. Keep strong. Keep thinking of your future as a happy family. I’m trying to focus on how bad it felt to lose rather than the big wins as inevitably even the big wins ended up as a loss. I couldn’t quit while I was ahead.
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27 May 2019 at 3:08 pm #51026Dazza85Participant
I totally understand this, the thing is a big big win usually came way down the line. So it takes 2 weeks minimum to big win it, but one things for sure everytime it comes your not even break even! It’s all bullshit.. lose £2k, then eventually win £1k. Your still down, yet now your brain acts like your up, then we repeat. It’s a joke and an addiction that we need to stay well away from. We can do this!
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29 May 2019 at 3:46 pm #51027Dazza85Participant
Today is Day 7, and I walked into the local bookies and placed a bet. Only a small bet, for the weekends final in football. I am so annoyed with myself. So so annoyed. I lasted 6 full days. So angry that I’ve let myself down like this. I have no access to anything on phone, I blocked it all, but I was in my local town today shopping and told myself a small flutter on the weekend wouldn’t hurt me. What a total dickhead I am..
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29 May 2019 at 4:18 pm #51028SteevParticipant
As compulsive gamblers we are always looking for excuses and opportunities to bet. It is what we do, so there is no point in beating yourself up about it.
The important thing is that you have recognised that you have slipped and you will now put things in place to ensure that it doesn’t happen again. It is also good that you have come back – not to confess, but to let us know that you still need support.
Treat your addiction like an allergy. If you were addicted to seafood – it may not hurt much to eat one or two prawns – but if you know that you would then be tempted to eat more – which would threaten your life – then even one is not a good idea.
That’s the issue – one small occasional bet won’t harm you – but it is the further things that it could (and probably would)that will.
Tighten your resolve and ensure that you get past 6 days next time – if not 60 or 600!
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29 May 2019 at 4:23 pm #51029Dazza85Participant
So annoyed with myself. There are no excuses I talked myself into it, I guess this proves to me I need to ban myself from the shops local to me. I’ve always bet online, I’ve never been into a bookies before today, that’s not something i want to start.
The good news is I hated being in there, felt so uncomfortable and awkward – it wasnt the nicest of experience! I’m thinking I should destroy the bet – that way regardless of a loss or win I just dont watch the game and il never know!
I’m scared if i let it go and it wins it will tempt me back? Your right though, I’m here because I need, and appreciate all of your support. You all keep it real, and you understand, that’s what nobody else gets, the why. My best mate was like ” stop being stupid just dont have a bet”.. argh.
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29 May 2019 at 5:03 pm #51030PlazaParticipant
Same name, same problem, but……
My vice is slots and I’m about 5 weeks into it and not one spin, not even free spins that’s been put on my account.
How I survive is because I do have a bet on the football. I allow myself that privilege every Saturday and it’s whats keeping me in check. It’s not much, just £20 a weekend but I’d rather lose £20 than hundreds and thousands which I’ve done previously.
Of course, it depends if Football betting is one of your vices.
If I was told to give everything up, I know I’d have zero chance.
Just an idea.Plaza
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29 May 2019 at 8:17 pm #51031PlazaParticipant
Totally get you and I wish you the very best going forward.
Even though I’ve been addicted to slot machines for over 40 years, I’ve never been a compulsive slot machine addict, so I’ve never had the unfortunate addiction like yourself. I may of lost over £200,000 in those 40 years, but never craved the need to play slots.
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29 May 2019 at 9:13 pm #51032Dazza85Participant
No need to apologise matey, I’m thankful to have you guys here to talk too. It all helps! And for what it’s worth I’m here for you all too!
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30 May 2019 at 8:50 am #51033NickParticipant
Hi Dazza the multi operator self exclusion scheme is free to join, it will exclude from all bookmakers you choose in your area / and as far as possible you can think of it’s number is 0800-294-2060 . Hope this helps . 🙂
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