[maverick.]

Hi all, I hope you are all well and staying gamble free. I have decided to start a new journal, my last one was short lived but just wanted to introduce myself………If I am to be truthful I had a very bad day (and as I always seem to do) I wanted to distance myself from all, anyway I suppose that is another one of my character defects and at least I know it so I can work on doing something about it, I will try my very best to keep this journal open for as long as I need. Today I heard a story about a fellow compulsive gambler who had slipped up, they went into a place of help full of other compulsive gamblers and instead of finding the help they so needed they were taunted and judged not by all I have to say but by a couple and that is such a sad and sorry state of affairs. I am afraid to say weather it be recovery or life there will always be good and bad, nice and nasty, helpful and unhelpful, gentle and aggressive, kind and unkind, caring and those that don’t, In all honesty I have been all the above in my life at some point or another but I have never and would never be happy or joke about anyone slipping in there recovery, weather it be someone I didn’t even know to my closest friend, I have seen people slip before in recovery and I have also slipped up myself and it takes a very brave and strong person to start over at there recovery again, I would just like to say to each and everyone that “we are all the same distance away from our next bet” no one is any better than the next person and that goes for recovery and life, I know the majority of us know that but for the few that don’t (if they ever read this) then the phrase that springs to mind is treat others as you would like to be treated, I have seen this sort of thing happen before to a very good friend of mine and in truth have experienced similar myself whilst in recovery, now days I understand it is just another character defect in that individual, so to my fellow compulsive gambler who slipped up I dedicate this post to you my friend, stay strong, I have slipped before and for me it made me put more barriers in place, made my recovery so much stronger and made me even more determined, you are a good person and I know that, there is plenty of help and support out there it is just finding out what best works for you, I wish you all the very best in your recovery and life, remember don’t let the “people” get you down. I would just like to add this story doesn’t relate to this site and I have found nothing but help and support on here and for that I would like to thank each and everyone of you who contributes towards this great site. Thank you very much for taking the time to read and listen, it means a lot to me. I promise I will keep this journal open for a long time as sharing helps me so very much in my recovery, take care and I wish you all the very best love Maverick. By the way I choose my title as I was called it in the past by a fellow compulsive gambler whilst in my recovery and although at the time it hurt me a lot now days I just laugh it off as I know who and what I am, keep at it, stay strong and never give in, thanks again for listening.

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