[IQUIT525]

I am going to keep this opening entry short as I’m absolutely distraught at the moment and cant properly think nor write out my story. I just want to start this entry today as I am experiencing the feelings that I am right now for future record. I also just took Xanax (safe prescribed dosage from doctor for panic attacks)

I am fearing when I wake up tomorrow and it clicks in that what I did today really happened. The depression I’m dealing with now is a state of shock and since I lost the money I have been in whats like a paralyzed state staring into open space while thoughts race through my mind on how much of a screw up I am. I don’t know where to go from here really. It will take me forever getting the money back by working and until I do, I feel like I wont be happy as i have experienced this before at smaller levels.
I feel if as I gambled away time. The money can come back with hard work over a long time.

Ill be back probably in 2 days to write more detail and tell my story about gambling and seek advice.

I wish I had a way to turn the calendar back 1 day and erase what happened.

Bed time….will sleep as much as my body needs to so I don’t have to think about the realities I am facing.

[charles]

Hi IQuit and welcome to the forums. Well done on looking for help. I am sure that reading the other threads here you will have seen lots of stories simialr to your own. You will also have seen the success stories, what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?

Keep posting and I look forward to hearing an update.

[Spidy]

Hi,

Don’t give up. I just lost everything in my bank account this past Friday. I have done this numerous times just like how you have. I totally get the roller coaster ride as it really feels that way when you get a winning day you are at the highest of highs and on a losing session you could feel like not doing anything.

The only way to get back to normal is stop gambling. Take it one day at a time and being honest with people around you would help.

Hope you feel better this morning. Keep in touch.

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