[Dave1]

No more excuses..
I gamble to gamble more. Winning is fun, just because I can gamble longer or with higher stakes. I’m never able to pay out.

It’s not about the money.. It’s a way of life. A lazy selfish way of living. The only way to get out of this is to find something else to do.

No more gambling for me, today was day one.

[Dave1]

Didn’t survive day 2. Guess I was too stressed.
The most difficult thing atm is the acceptance that I need to live with a small budget.

[finding_laura]

Hey Dave,

Pleasure chatting! I hope tomorrow night you will be posting you made it through the day!

Sometimes living within a small budget gives us less opportunity to gamble although i can understand it as a trigger. Anytime unexpected bills pop up i think i can win myself out of the situation. The only guarantee if i place that first bet is that it won’t be the last. And we know where that leads us!

I used to sit and play the local slot machines that had a max payout of $5000 and wished that I could win the lotto so that I would be well off enough to sit there and play all day every day if I wanted, which, who am i kidding, I most def wanted.

I woke up! I don’t want to spend the rest of my life in a lounge looking at spinning wheels. Getting sour as things go south! I’d probably have to move on to bigger locations and bets and be out in the street before you knew it.

I can’t believe i thought after nearly 6 years I should tempt that fate again!

One day at a time Dave, maybe not a lot of money is a good thing right now. Another barrier. What has been triggering you? Need some other support? GA? Maybe an addictions counselor.

One step at a time. Maybe join Shaun’s pledge. Keep posting.

Laura

[Dave1]

It’s easy to run away and don’t come back. Stopping recovery is easy. But I wont this time. I need to stop eventually, better today then tomorrow.

I hate myself and the position I’m in. Sometimes I think I would be better of without an accountant or the meddling of others. Because of the fact I’m being protected, I’m very indifferent. I just don’t care about a lot of things anymore. And because of neglecting so much things, I just want to gamble and forget about everything.

Haven’t gamble today. Gambling doesn’t make things better, so no point in doing it.

[i-did-it]

Hi Dave ,
When gambling becomes an addiction all it brings is guilt, pain and what ifs.
Well done on trying again to stop .it is really hard to stop by many on here hAve done it .
Instead of gambling try posting on here – even if it’s twenty times a day .

[finding_laura]

Well done on not gambling today Dave! Any ideas on what will make life better? Some of the best things in life are free. You say you’re protected but you still caused damage. Time to wake up and ditch the indifference! Glad to see your post 🙂 Laura

[Dave1]

I can’t help myself, why is it that I need to gamble…

7 years ago I was active on another forum. I was telling I had a debt of €7000, but that I just couldn’t accept that debt and that was the reason for me to gamble. They told me I’m being foolish and if I didn’t quit now, I would at least have 5 times that amount.

I didn’t listen, I thought I knew what I was doing and that I would win at one point, that I wasn’t like them other gamblers, yeah right. They were right, but it ended with 10 times the amount :’).

Now my biggest obstacle is dealing with having an accountant. No it’s not, my biggest problem is self-pity, I’m so sad…Stop FFS and move on

[vera]

We need to grieve over our losses, Dave.
Look at what you lost.
It is NEVER NEVER NEVER coming back
Every time you gamble the debt gets bigger and you self esteem shrinks. You lose EVERYTHING including your soul.
Money comes and goes.
Some (far more important losses) are irreplaceable.
Think of that before you place your next bet.
Life is for living
You would survive a concentration camp
Walk away now before this addiction destroys you.
It has the power to do that!

[Dave1]

Thanks for your post and chat. Everything you say is just so right. Things will just get worse and money isn’t just the problem. There’s no point in placing another bet…

[vera]

How was your day, Dave?

[Dave1]

Thanks for asking Vera. Last 2 days were good, no gambling.

[finding_laura]

Good to hear Dave! Vera has a way with words. Haven’t met a CG yet who kept going and ended up with less debt. How you feeling today?
Laura

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