[ozcat]

My story is not any different to most of yours.  When I found gambling my life changed forever.  I have had my share of demons in my life time – I am a recovering addict as well but gambling has bought me to my knees!  If I am honest about it I have been a gambler all my life in some way, marbles in the school yard, stealin money from parents to play pin ball machines after school, pool hall wagers.  For a while drugs did it for me, but when I put them down the first time I found another outlet for my destruction and that was gambling.  I have spent the last 15 yrs actively gambling and it has been the most destructive of all.  Not only have I accumulated debt, but I have fought major depression, suicide and all the other not so charming mental and spiritual agonies related to compulsive gambling.  I have had short periods of abstinance only to be followed by even greater depths of despair when I returned to gambling.  For the past year I have needed to return to rehab because of my gambling and drug taking.  I am getting better but have a long way to go.  I am a slow learner and a quick forgetter but with help I think I can make it this time.Courage, not the abscence of fear or despair but the strength to conquer them!

[Muallif]

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