You do know what to write about and you have just written about it – ie your struggle and your sense of regret and loss right now. It is good that you have been able to share this. The addiction does not willingly give up its grip on you, but today’s ‘failure’ does not have to be repeated nor determine your future.
What can you learn from this? What more do you need to do to prevent this happening? What other support do you need?
Look after the part of you that truly longs for a gambling-free life and do all you can, with the help of others, to nurture that part of you.
Can you get to live groups?
Wishing you well,
Monique