[bettie]

Oh Boy,
Where to start. I blew it. Over two months "clean", feeling good for the most part, and I still blew it.
No excuses. Job stress, weight gain, feeling "cheated" at work, lonely. All the same story. What makes for a different ending?
I called the phome number on the back of the players card that i held on to. It’s for the national gambling hotline. Compleatly useless! I asked how to ban from a tribal casino and the girl on the other end says, I wouldn’t know what to tell you except to call the casino. Why would they have that number on the card if they didn’t know how to help?
I am discusted. My back hurts, I need a shower and I need to get ready for work.
I really don’t like me at all.
bettie