[Rok0504]

I’m 40 years old have 4 beautiful kids and a wonderful wife yet still risk throwing it all away by gambling. I’ve been gambling for roughly twenty years. My wife of 12 years almost left me once before, due to my addiction. That was about 10 years ago. After attending GA for about a year I thought I was recovered. My wife supported me and trusted me again. Within the past few years my addiction has reared its ugly head again. I’m scared to tell me wife. I don’t want to lose her and my family. I am hoping that by posting this and looking at it every day, it will remind me of what I’m really gambling with (my family). I need the will power to stop right now and be a better husband and father. Today is day one.

[Jonny123987]

So you posted it. Has it helped you? You said you’d be back here but have you? I’m also in my forties and have lost everything. If you lose that woman and those kids it will be the biggest loss ever.
I ask you for my own well being… How long did you quit for and why did you start back up?

[Rok0504]

Quit for 6 years. cant really explain why i started again and obviously wish I never did. I’ve been clean since my post and log on every so often to read other people’s experiences with this addiction. I’ve been a sports fan my whole life and betting on the games made it that much more exciting for me. The amount of money and time I wasted and took from my family hurts more than anything else.

[finding_laura]

Hi Rok,

I’m a woman in late 40’s, have 2 almost grown sons, and also had nearly 6 years of recovery/abstinence. When I look back the last three years were abstinence only. I went back to normal life (I had only gambled for a total of 4 years prior to this). I didn’t attend meetings or use websites. I knew I wasn’t cured, but it wasn’t on my mind anymore. Now I see the mistake in that. I’ve been gambling sporadically for two years now. I’ve not told my husband about my return to gambling. Only a close GA friend knows. He had swore he’d leave me if he caught me gambling again. Not sure I’m ready for that.
So all of that to say “I hear you” and understand where you are coming from. I’m glad to read that you have been checking in and that you haven’t been gambling.
I don’t know much about sport betting so I’m not sure how you can block yourself but maybe someone in the community who is familiar can give you some suggestions. Have you thought of some ways to restrict your access to money so you don’t cause destruction? Have you thought of going to a meeting? I”m thinking I will go back to GA once my medical situation improves. I hope you are finding some resources and support.
take care,
Laura

[lizbeth4]

Hi Rok, I’m glad you’ve found this site. Maybe GA meetings, blockers (not sure how that works) and other resources can help you. I kept the severity of my gambling from my Husband. I do understand what you are going through. When you can read other’s threads. That was very helpful for me. Take care.

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