[skevoula]

Forgive me for my poor English but its not my native language. before I start even though im new to this I would like to thank whoever thought about this concept of help, and when I m done from gambling I will try to do something similar for Cyprus too, many people are refusing to go get treatment because they are embraced including myself, not here though.

Yesterday I didn’t go to work. I couldn’t, and I promised myself that this was the last time I changed my plans because of online gambling. my story goes back to 2005 when I started with little money… until 2 years ago when things got out of control. I used to help people with money and now I m in dept, not for long though because now is different, now I promised to my 7 month girl that enough is enough on the 5th after I lost ll my money I had in my account I went home.. she was so happy to see me but I was devastated and I couldn’t play with her.

Yesterday I managed to get money into my wallet and keep them there, I wish I can do that during the weekend since every Friday I get some money from work which don’t last a lot. one day at a time I guess.

I don’t know why im doing it since im lucky enough to have a very good job and get enough money, last year the reason was to get the money I lost back I guess. Yesterday after an incited with my husband I remembered (After a long time) that sometimes when I say something to him without having a conversation or at least say what he wants he gets angry. I hate that.

I need to fight the voice that inside me that is asking me to gamble every time I have money. last time… that’s always what it says… well I hope it wont be another last time.
this is for now… even though I have a lot more to say…

thanks for reading it!

[skevoula]

forgot to tell you that none of my family members know how bad gambling went for me. they thing I have stoped. the reason why im not telling my husband is because im afraid of how he will react.

[micky]

Hi Skevoula and welcome to our family of compulsive gamblers , we are all in the same boat as you one way or another. Well done on promising your baby daughter you will not gamble again it’s a great reason not to and something you can think about when you get the urge to gamble when you have money. Micky.

[janey1]

I’m glad to see you posting Skevoula.

Have a think about strengthening your support network by finding at least one person (friend or family member) to talk to face to face…to be your “phone buddy” when you’re in a vulnerable position. Then think about possibly seeking counselling, going to Gamblers Anonymous and working on building up your emotional strength and developing new coping strategies.

You can do this Skevoula…and I’m looking forward to seeing the changes you make!

Take care
Janey

[skevoula]

thanks Micky!

[skevoula]

I will do it…
baby steps at the beginning but I will do it.
I will use the forums for my phone buddy at the begging and I will go on from there…

[vera]

Welcome to GT Skevoula!
It was good to see you in the chat yesterday . Well done on opening your own thread.
Gambling is a progressive disease which steals , not only our money but also our precious time.
Do not allow it to take another moment from you . You deserve to have a better life , especially with a young baby on your lap!
My advice to you is to hand over the management of your money to your husband immediately before another disaster strikes!
CGs CANNOT handle money in the early stages of recovery.
‘SEE YOU IN THE CHAT GROUPS LATER!

[skevoula]

Thanks !!! I was the one taking care of the money since day one… he will b very suprised if i do that!!! I will c what happens

[vera]

He will be even more surprised, Skevoula when he finds there is NO money!
So will you!!
I was!!!!!!

[charles]

Hi Skevlouva, good to meet you yesterday and god to see your first post. I see you are already getting some great advice and support. keep posting and hopefully I will see you in a group again soon.

[skevoula]

Day 2 (yesterday) clean and clear! And tge best part is that i have money to use but i wont… so far every time i said i would stop and never play again was wheb i had no money and then when i was getting some even 20euros i would deposit then to get the money i lost !
Day 3 today but even though i feel great for not playing im sad… like im giving up on a friend….

[vera]

Giving up on an abusive friend Skevoula!
Well done!

[p]

Keep going, keep those days adding up one by one.. dont worry about tomorrow or yesterday, just get through one day at a time, just this day.. just for today i wont gamble, or the next hour, break it down if you have to and if you get the urge to gamble try to delay it.. just wait it out, wait an hour, get busy, start really getting into something else, cleaning, cooking, eating, walking, visit a friend or phone, read a book.. watch a movie, whatever it is to distract you from that urge and eventually it passes and the relief comes that you didnt go and self destruct again.. keep going.. a day at a time

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