[stuart69]

Well here we go again, I have been a CG since I remember, in some ways I dont know any better, in my gambling life I have only ever had a few years gamble free. Today so far I havent gambled, I feel today that I have had enough of the misery, I have gambled yesterday and done damage financially I can recover but emotionally iI struggle, Guilt kicks me hard, but its that guilt that I want to use to drive my recovery. I have a partner and kids, and she controls 95% bof the money in this house, which is great, but when I do have some money I go route one to the bookies. and always do the lot, I dont even enjoy it as I am always watching the door incase my partner walks in and catches me. Its a nightmare I want out of.

[Anonim]

Hi Stuart. I know exactly what you mean. That watching over your shoulder afraid of being caught, inventing lies to cover lies.. And then the low after gambling.. I am like that at the slot machines. i cant enjoy it because from the moment i go in I am panicking about winning back. You are not too bad when you can recover financially, so be positive and take one day at a time. You will get there.

[stuart69]

Well I got through yesterday, and so far today is a good day. thanks guys for the responses, its good to know someone reads my rant, I dont feel so alone. I have a pounding head today so i’m not in the mood for much!!!!

[charles]

Hi Stuart and welcoem to the Forum. i see you are already getting some good advice and suggestions.

Your ost start “Well here we go again….” So, what can you do differently this time? Self exclusion? 100% accountability as Harry suggestsd? GA meetings? Something else?

Keep posting and let us know the positive steps you are taking.

[sam.sam]

I am a CG in my recovery for the last few weeks. With out writing in here and attending the life chat rooms in here I would be in betting shops gambling. as you can see we all have been there and more or less we know the feelings.
By coming here you have started the recovery already. I just want to mention that instead of going to betting shop and being worry that your partner would see you, talk to her and tell her exactly what you did, and how you felt. I can feel that she is the closest support you have. And take things One Day At a Time. That is what I am doing. Take care

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