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17 Nisan 2017: 8:27 pm #37453Lynda1959Katılımcı
Hello and thank you for the opportunity to post my story about my gambling addiction. I had made a previous post as a comment to another individual who was telling his story but, thanks to Geordie18 he has steered me to the right place for newcomers.
My goal is to stop this madness but, I’m finding it very hard to refrain from gambling. I have literally went through thousands and thousands of dollars all for the sake of gambling and the thrills of winning. But, lost and lost more than I could afford. I need to stop!
I’ve spent every last dime I had just to gamble. I’ve found myself in a big financial hurt and I mean big time to where I didn’t have any money to pay my bills or much less buy food. This has happened to me over and over. I think I am smarter than that and shouldn’t put myself in this predicament. But, sadly when I get my monthly annuity I start this gambling madness again.
I win and win more but, my temptations to gamble take me into a downward spiral and I lose everything I’ve won and lost more on top of it. It’s extremely painful but yet I still haven’t learned. Telling myself “THAT’S IT – I AM DONE WITH GAMBLING” never works.
This is my first and only step I’ve taken to talk about this as I have been gambling for 30+ years. I used to cringe at losing $50-$100 but, in the past 3 plus years that’s turned into losing $500-$2k at a clip! Unbelievable!! I can’t afford this nonsense as it has ruined my life.
I lost a lot of money early on in this month of April and virtually had nothing left. Got my state refund on the 15th and gambled $120 of that away. Went one day gamble free. Day two, today, I spent another $30 to gamble and lost. So, here I am nearly broke once again.
I want to be happy and I want to be normal. I am better than this and I need to get my life together and live my life without gambling.
I shall strive to better myself and to stop gambling. I can’t count today as my starting date so as of 18 April 2017 I will start my journey into a better life and I pray to God to help me with this.
Sincerely,
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17 Nisan 2017: 9:58 pm #37454charlesModeratör
Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums
Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!
Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.
As well as the forums New Members are invited to join Charles in the New Members Practical Advice Group On Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK)
And on that note….
I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂
Take care
The Gambling Therapy Team
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17 Nisan 2017: 10:07 pm #37455charlesModeratör
Hi Lynda, well done on looking for help and thanks to Geordie for pointing you in the right direction.
As you have been reading the other stories here you will already have seen many things that you will relate to. You will also have seen the success stories – what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?
What barriers can you put in place? Self exclusion from where ever it is you normally gamble? Blockers for your PC/phone if you gamble on line? How can you limit your access to funds with which to gamble? Try and put things in place before your next annuity.
There is a lot of support available to us these days, here and other sites, places like gamblers Anonymous, counselling and more.
Keep posting and let us know the positive steps that you are starting to take.
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19 Nisan 2017: 10:45 pm #37456finding_lauraKatılımcı
Hi Lynda,
welcome to the forum and well done on posting your story. Now you have a place to come and put your thoughts relating to gambling, as well as a place to learn from others We support each other through this process of stopping the madness and then staying stopped. I think one of the hardest things is getting it into our heads that we can never gamble responsibly again. No matter what we will lose control eventually and hurt ourselves once again. Charles has some really good advice on stopping. Like perhaps you can self exclude at the casino if that is where you gamble? Or perhaps restricting your access to cash somehow? I too am working on putting some of these barriers in place. Now that I have stopped I want to stay stopped. Keep posting. Never give up trying.
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20 Nisan 2017: 2:47 pm #37457Lynda1959Katılımcı
I went another whole day without gambling but, again the next day (yesterday) I gambled again. Another $70 wasted. I think about gambling while I sleep and during the day I get that sick feeling in my stomach to gamble. I know it’s all in the mind. I try to focus on the long road and I get frustrated. I have no patience. I want things now and I want to get out of this hole I’m in. I don’t have much money left to do any more gambling this month which is a good thing. I do fear that when I get my annuity on the 1st of May I will be struggling with refraining from gambling. Hopefully I won’t be tempted to throw all my money down the drain again. It’s so hard when you’ve done it for so many years – more like a habit. I’m a grown woman and I do what I want. But this gambling is something I don’t want in my life anymore. Yes, Laura the access to websites to gamble is too easy for me. I don’t have to leave the house to gamble as it’s online 24/7. I’ll be thinking of ways to restrict my access somehow. Glad to hear you are on the right path to stopping gambling Laura. Thanks for your valued thoughts and support.
Gambling is like eating from the forbidden tree in the story of Adam and Eve.
“Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the Lord God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden.
The woman said to the serpent, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.
“You will not certainly die,” the serpent said to the woman. For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”
Then the Lord God said to the woman, “What is this you have done?”
The woman said, “The serpent deceived me, and I ate.”Lynda
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23 Nisan 2017: 3:45 am #37458i-did-itKatılımcı
Hi Lynda, I can really relate to those bible verses you have chosen to share . I wonder what makes us return to play again and again with the serpent which bites us ?
I have put a gambling blocker on my phone and on my internet devices and that helps a lot . Perhaps you could do the same? The one for my phone costs around £10 per month and saves me hundreds every month .
I really hope the support you get on here helps – you should also try the support groups if you haven’t already .
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23 Nisan 2017: 3:45 am #37459i-did-itKatılımcı
Hi Lynda, I can really relate to those bible verses you have chosen to share . I wonder what makes us return to play again and again with the serpent which bites us ?
I have put a gambling blocker on my phone and on my internet devices and that helps a lot . Perhaps you could do the same? The one for my phone costs around £10 per month and saves me hundreds every month .
I really hope the support you get on here helps – you should also try the support groups if you haven’t already .
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23 Nisan 2017: 1:29 pm #37460Lynda1959Katılımcı
Yes, I feel so strongly that it’s the Devil making us do this terrible thing with our money. It’s funny though, when I would win I’d say, “Yes!! Thank you Lord!” Crazy heh or, maybe not. Good, evil, right, wrong, etc. it’s like you’re going in circles in your life and you can’t find the right path or stay on it for some reason. It’s the boredom mostly that gets me into online gambling. I’m gradually working through that at the moment. I really don’t have any other choice since I am broke and can’t gamble right now. Hopefully this “Dry spell” will do the trick.
As far as a gambling blocker, I’d have to look into that and see how that works. Splendid idea thanks i-did-it!
Day 3 of gamble free!
Lynda
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23 Nisan 2017: 1:55 pm #37461finding_lauraKatılımcı
Hi Lynda, i often talk to God too when I am gambling. Oh please God just let me win enough to make up for what i lost. I’ll do the responsible things with the money. I deserve it. Then when I lose, because even when i win, i will lose. I don’t deserve this God, what have i done to deserve this? Please take this addiction away. But really the slots i play are a man made machine that is designed to entice and thrill and hook. They are designed to make the venues money. The only guarantee is that the more you play the more you will end up losing. It is not God who is responsible for whether I win or lose. God gave us free will in this life. I need to use mine to say no to gambling. I need to put in place the things that will help me get through the bad times. Keep working on your issues Lynda and prepare for when you have money again. Because the desire will really start pumping through your veins as soon as your money arrives. Well done on your progress! Stay strong, Laura
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23 Nisan 2017: 5:40 pm #37462Lynda1959Katılımcı
Hi Laura,
Thanks for your comment. You hit the nail on the head when you said, “I don’t deserve this God, what have I done to deserve this?” I often have said those exact words after I lost..lots of times. And, I also have cried many times after putting myself in this situation many, many times. Why don’t I ever learn? I say that I’m not happy until I’m miserable. Sad and very odd to say but, so true for some reason. Sounds like I’m a crazy lunatic but, it’s the gambling sickness.I’ve also compared my money that I lost to others that buy expensive clothes, jewelry, go on trips, etc. That’s their thrills and excitement so, my gambling and winning or losing is my thrill. Trying to make excuses like that is wrong I know because there is more to life than just sitting here gambling my life away and wasting money that I can’t afford.
I will do my best to stay strong as you say Laura and hold off the urge to gamble when my annuity comes in. Thank you so much for your support and good luck with your continued success!
Thanks again!
Lynda -
14 Haziran 2017: 12:35 pm #37463kathrynKatılımcı
Bringing you back to the top!
How are you?
Did you manage to look into that blocker?
We need as many barriers as we can get….everything helps.
Hope to hear from you!
Love K x
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