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I’m 25years Old from Nigeria, West Africa

I started gambling when I was 19years old, it started as a fun before it became very addictive. I just can’t do without gambling, no matter how hard I try to stop, I keep gambling knowing all the pain I have gone through.

The past 3years has been hell for me. After I graduated from University, I became very addictive, Infact I don’t have any savings at all. I have lost up to $12000 to gambling and still counting. I have lost a lot of friends because of my habit, I’m in alot of debt because of this, but I just can’t seems to stop.

Whenever I loss a huge amount of money to gambling, I promise myself it will be the last but hell no, it isn’t. Whenever I make money or money gets to my hand. I must gamble with it and I end up losing the money all the time. I keep hoping to win back all I have lost but I end up losing people that matters to me and keep on increasing my debt.

I got into depression last 3months, when I used my uncle’s $7000 to gamble and lost everything.(I transferred money from his account because I knew his details and wanted to make money and return it back)
That’s was the first time my family finally knew I’m an addict.

In Africa they mostly believe this addictions are spiritual, they took me to different places to healing but nothing worked out.

I keep promising myself that things will get better and I know that I’m okay with gambling but I just can’t seems to stop. I don’t have control over money. Even when I know I will loss I will still gamble.

The most funniest thing is that I’m always unlucky. Whenever I gamble no matter how small the odd is I will loss.

I’m a loner right now. Just confused because I have hurt alot of people because of my addiction expecially my Mum.

Just today I borrowed money using my friend’s phone and his details and gamble away everything. When he gets to find out and reports me, I will be in trouble. My parents already sees me as a disappointment.

My life keeps getting worst, no changes. Have read alot of books about quitting gambling. But it’s not working. Please I need honest advice because I’m in alot of debts and have been through alot at this young age. I’m really scared of the future. I might end up committing suicide cus thats the only thing I could think now. I hope today will be my last gamble. Amen

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