Hey velvet,
Thank you so much for your comment. It’s so inspiring… Reading your and Steev’s words make me want to walk this path so that eventually one day I’ll have the wisdom to write like both of you do and like other people here in the forum.
Well, at this point in my life Im certain that i have no friends. I have people that invite me from time to time for dinner, that maybe enjoy the time with me, but that then dont care. I do have people that worry about me, my brother, my parents, my cousins. Thats pure love, but somehow I dont love them the same way. Its like im going after people that dont care and i dont appreciate the people i take for granted. Its strange.
Today something funny happened. I was having lunch with my parents and my mum saw that they sold scratch cards in that place. She wanted to buy me one and I told her i’d prefer that she gave me the money. So its day 16 GF, i handled the pressure of the gambling addict inside me!!! Today was also the proof that my father didnt tell anything about my addiction to my mum, which i find surprising, although he knows how much i owe to the bank and how much ive stollen from him. He thinks its better not to talk about what’s negative but it clearly doesnt work. It might be easier in the short term, but in the long term problems will just get bigger.
Anyway velvet, thanks once again for the comment, I started writing and my thoughts lead me this way.
Have a wonderful Sunday.