Today I went grocery shopping — I didn’t go to my usual bargain supermarket and check for reduced food .
Today I bought expensive food — and today I got the real taste of delicious food — it was so good — I cannot believe the difference .
Today I bought good food because I am never depriving myself or my family again. Today I bought good food because I have the money I didn’t gamble .
Today I also have had crazy urges .
The are bouncing around my head like a ping pong ball — From Website to casino to lottery — from win to riches to how generous I can be.
The impatience is starting again — a new kitchen later this year or a new kitchen now — I could win the money — my brain has tricked me too often — today I will wait!
Today I have been burned often enough to know what the outcome will be .
So why do the urges keep coming ?