Thanks everyone for your support. I am truly working on being happy every day and just tackling the day ahead. One of my largest fears is looking forward and how long this venture will take to clean my mistake of gambling debt. But I am trying to tell myself that this is a life long venture. Sure it might take me 1-2 years to clear myself and be debt free. But even then I will only be 30 and have so much time to build everything and have anything I want.
Thanks Berta you are right I need to eliminate my access and will be downloading a blocker on my phone. I did this in the past on my laptop and iPad but not my phone. It must have been because in the back of my mind I still wanted to gamble.
One of the hardest problems I have right now is the fact that a large trigger for me is sports betting. And to be honest with you watching and enjoying sports is my largest hobby in life. I am thinking I might need to almost stop watching sports for the year until I have my brain recorrected. I have a constant hobbit of going on my sports app and even if I am not betting guessing who will win or cover a spread. As of today I am deleting the app.
Thanks everyone today is a new day and I’m going to focus on kicking it’s ass.