Hi there. I made my last bet an hour ago. March 12th, 9:30pm. It’s almost been a year since I have been attending GA but I can’t seem to keep my gambling at bay. I feel hope but it is drenched in doubt. I have stopped for days, weeks, or even months, but eventually, it feels like I forget how terrible this disease is and I go right back into gambling. I am at a loss for how to deal with these urges. I am tired of the relapses and tired of being in so much debt. I am facing the music yet again. I’ll try to post everday. Maybe that will help.