[Billmaher333]

I just completely buried myself in a matter of three weeks. I am 30 and make roughly 25,000 a year as a freelancer and I just dumped 15000 dollars. I can’t believe I really just lost complete control and for a whole month it did not hit me how reckless i was being. I could have stopped the bleeding but I didn’t.
I have to tell myself I can get through this but right now I finally feel the pain of losing all that money. It’s like all the self denial of what was happening is gone now and I’m left with nothing. I know I can take right action and not sabatoge moving forward. Ive had many addiction issues in the past. My last two demons to conquer are cigarettes and gambling. I have to be honest with myself and realize how severe the consequences will be but I hope it will motivate me to earn more and lead a more fulfilling life so I don’t feel the need to ever gamble again. All the time wasted haunts me not just the money. The only way I can succeed is to start to get therapy and attend recovery meetings.

[Steev]

I feel that way too. I am twice your age and I now realise what I could have been doing with all the time spent in gambling places chasing losses mainly.

Good that you have sought out therapy and recovery meetings. The other things you can be doing are – banning / barring yourself from places where you may be tempted to gamble, and limiting your finances so you don’t have the means gamble. If you have a trusted friend or loved one – then hand over your finances completely until you feel strong enough. But be aware this could be several months or even years. I wish you well.

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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And on that note….

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Take care

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[velvet]

Hi Bill

You can get through this with determination and courage. You are right that the consequences of continuing are severe, and probably wore than anything you can imagine but you are here now, accepting your addiction and hopefully taking responsibility for your debt, which is a big step in the right direction.

You do not have to earn more money to lead a more fulfilling life, you already have the power to live a better life, right there within you. Controlling an addiction to gamble takes guts but the end result is fantastic, you will be stronger and more empathetic, you will be the man you want to be, the man other will want to know. Controlling the addiction to gamble can be the greatest education. I am fortunate enough to know many who have learned to control their gambling and are living very special lives, more special, in my opinion, because of what they went through

Keep posting, keep going to meetings, you are being heard

Velvet

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