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Waste Of A Precious Time/life (i wrote this back in January on another site)
Posted January 21st, 2012 at 5:02AM
 
my story is that i was gambling for nearly 3 years on the slots, i became a gambler gambling everyday, but i never gave up trying to quit. i have tried so many things to overcome the pull of slot machines. but i have learned alot from my personal experience. no bet high enough, no bet low enough will make you a winner if you continue to bet. i don’t care if you won the jackpot, the signs are designed to lure you, society calls it entertainment. but you have a responsiblity to yourself to realise that you just don’t become a winner on slots no way knowing. i know too well how hard it is to realise this, it took me alot of time money and other resources but i was desperate for a way out because i had become miserable, i didn’t enjoy being conned anymore. the machines are designed and preprogrammed, there are laws for this, so it must be true. the only random thing happening is no one can predict them, all we know is it takes lots more money than you think to get a "big" wim, the chance that you may get a major is nearly impossible, so why bother i ask you this sincerly. learn from others mistakes, i used to be bored, now that i have spare time i educate myself, keep a journal of my thoughts about gambling, i even started ga meetings yesterday for the first time. really i thought nothing could stop me, but when you run out of money you have to come up with something your own personal solution to stop gambling on slot machines. hell if you want random, try lottery or roulette, the slots are not random in the sense that you are in someway part of a lucky spin, the computer decides when it has enough money to pay "big" i out "big" in brackets because well it’s never good enough, big enough if you don’t stop, and it will take you alot more money than you think to get some in return, a hell of a lot more, if you don’t stop now. just know you can’t really win, the chances are slim very slim realise this, so what makes you think that you can get money out of this pursuit, what makes you think you won’t lose, and 10 dollars, 6 dollars and hey i used to look everywhere for an extra dollar to play some more. i hate to sound arrogant but it is stupid to even think you can get any money, so how can it be fun. you call it fun, but you must have some kind of void or emotional issue you ahev to come to terms with. there are plenty of forums where you can express yourself, and basically get over your emotional issues, see a counsellor if what they say doesn’t affect you just wait in time it will. you have to want to stop and keep trying. everything will fall into place, but i feel all this warning for people who are addicted is never going to change their behaviour, like i said they have to make up their own minds. feel your emotions, i used to think i gambled because i was bored, i tell you i was not myself, so i tried everything that i could. now i have stopped, not to say that i never feel like it when i go past a venue, i do but i fight back with my mind, if you can’t fight back well it’s a daily thing. the pictures, the sounds, all false positives, they are destroying you and your life. seek medical help. there is no one answer. but don’t give up. it is a stupid pursuit, but we are innocent, we are innocent. find love, find support, find the key. i go through tough days, i don’t always feel 100% but i am no longer an emotional wreck because i am working on my emotional issues, and mental issues, to grow, to become a better person, with empathy compassion and just better overall. all the stories of people losing everything makes me mad. i am not one of them, i have lost what i had but my extremes were my own, my rock bottom was my own. i realise it is not easy, i truely do. but i also realise that the real code to crack is your own mind, your feelings, and your perception. if you can do that you are well on the way to recovery, and have patience. wish you all the best. i hate pokies for what they do to innocent people who have been caught in the lure or are just victims of their own minds.
i need help

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