[thebigguy]

just joined this a few hours ago, been a few days since my last gamble, i had lost £500 online and £300 the week or so before, I am in no debt but have no savings, i started gambling when i was 16 i won 2 £25 jackpots on a fruit machine and i was hooked, when i was 21 i took out a £2000 loan to get a car and sort myself out I also spent my £3000 student over draft all on gambling but i didnt make the repayments and ended up £10k in debt and the only way to get myself out of this mess for me was to set up a trust deed, i was single at the time and didnt care because it was my money ( not really and a over draft ) at my lowest i lost a £900 tax rebate i was lucky enough to get at my highest for lack of better word was a £3000 win but you can guess where that all went there is no high in the end only the sickening low after the loss even if i won i would throw it all back anyways via online slots or roulette, flash forward to today im 30years old and have been in a realtionship for 3 years, we share a flat my partner takes care of the flat funds and knows about my problem i have never let her down with a payment we have luckly never missed a bill because i concously pay all those the very second i get paid via bank transfer, I took out a credit card after my trust deed had finished to improve my credit rating and this week was my last i had signed up to an online casino ( which i have now self excluded from) before i moved in with my partner i wrote to every casino bookie and bingo hall in town with a photograph of myself and a description of my betting habbits and i have never went in since but the other day i had my online relapse even as i was signing up i told my self this is dumb so so dumb but did it anyway, and felt sick afterwards so i gave my credit card to my brother and set out to fix things before it spirals again i have a good life and know gambling could screw up what i have, i can’t wait for gamstop to launch so i can block myself from all uk sites gambling is my worst and ugliest habbit i seem to h=get this itch i ether fill will food or gambling from time to time and i’m trying to improve my diet and set my mind to other things other than throwing my money away, sorry for the ramblings just wanted to share my story any questions i will answer openly and honestly and any advice would be apprecated.

[velvet]

Hello Bigguy and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

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[maverick.]

Thebigguy, great honest post my friend and very glad you are here, this addiction will take everything and then some, I have been gambling for around 25 years (40 years old now) found recovery around 5 years ago and been in and out since then however that time 5 years ago I wanted to stop and before I didnt thats the difference, just woke and read your post so wanted to make a quick reply to let you know you are not alone.

Sounds like you have your mind in a good place and that is always good, keep posting and sharing there are many helpful people around here and they know how you feel………….lets get busy living my friend as the alternative just isnt an option!

Glad you found this site and wish you well.

Maverick

[kabakanie]

Seems like we on the same track…. I’m fighting with it, also having diet, changing my habits. I think there is no money issues with gambling it’s only our head – lack of motivation, lack of hobbies and living low loser life.

Maybe try to watch Japanese Anime – KAIJI – this is master piece about gambling…..

Kaiji is something which may change you mind……..
Check this scene ! – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wq7ttau76_Y

[thebigguy]

just wanted to thank you guys for the words of advice have not had the urge to gamble not a scratch card on my lunch break, not the money i saved from my cars mot none of it, im off on a trip of a life time soon which my partner bought me for my 30th so focused on saving for that and keeping as busy as i can, the best thing about this is i love to write and here i can just say what is on my mind and someone from a different place will say i here ya buddy your not alone, gambling is a horrible thing it turns people into things they are not and causes pain on the way, i walked past my old neighbourhood a day go and smiled that a local bookie had perminatly closed it was one that sits next to a local pub and i just smiled score 1 for the good guys :>), told my partner the warning signs of me gambling, i go quiet, im red faced, i always look to put a future plan in place i.e suggest we save for this or go do this asap, she knows what to look for as does my family they all know thats why no one on a night out goes to the casino for breakfast etc, i cant get in anyways self excluded without even setting foot in the place i did that to protect myself if i ever go into town on a night out and have a drink and get that itch always tell myself even if you won you they would get it back and then some in the end, anyways bit of a ramble but i just say what is on my mind, kabakanie and maverick thanks again for the kind words and wish you all the best in your fights with this one day at a time, the next time i get the urge i just won’t of that im sure after meeting people on here maybe life lessons are to be learned to make us all stronger and smarter people one day at a time.

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