[CraigMac6]

Hello All. I have been here way too many times over the years, only to give in to my addiction. It’s been a long journey for me (as it has for us all) but I feel it deep within my soul that it is time for a better life. I’ve cheated my family so much over the years and i refuse to continue to do so. I am going to list all of the negative things gambling has caused me and my family. A lot of these things my family doesn’t even know is a result of gambling. Sad!
My addiction is sports gambling. I’ve been gambling for a little over 10 years, with the last year being completely out of control. I have to make some changes in my life and this is the first priority.
Looking back on all the pain I’ve caused others, it’s tough to acknowledge as truth but it is the truth. My gambling has caused my family a tremendous amount of pain. I cannot change that, but I can be a better man today by making better life choices.
Thank you for reading. I will be back! Here’s to a better man, husband, father, brother and friend. It starts now!

[CraigMac6]

I’m back for another day of being gambling free. While I’m definitely stressed because of my finances, I had an amazing day with my wife and daughter. We enjoyed time together outside and I was living in the moment. I loved every second of it. I wasn’t constantly checking my phone for a score update. In fact I only checked my phone one time and that was to see the time. I have to admit I had some guilt because of all the times where I didn’t fully enjoy the moment because of my selfish gambling ways. There were so many times we were having family time, and I was present but my mind was occupied with a game. I would secretly (so I thought) would check my phone for scores and scores. My mood would change drastically based upon the score. If I was winning or won, I would be a great person to be around. If I was losing, I’m all of a sudden quick tempered and bothering by everything. I don’t want to live my life that way. That’s not who I am nor who I want to be. I know gambling has impacted us all, and it has caused us to be and do things we regret and I am no exception. I realize I cannot change the past, but I can control the right now. The present. By making my daily promise to not gamble, I know I will be a much better husband, father, friend and brother. Today I will not gamble. I will live my life on my terms.
Have a beautiful day all, and I remember we are in control of our actions. Gambling will never solve any of our problems, only make them worse!
Be great!

[pilotdad1980]

It definitely is a miserable cycle. I’m a couple days gamble free as well and I really don’t have any urges right now. I know they will come though. I know once they do they will rationalize my behavior and do a really good job convincing me that my behavior is okay. It isn’t okay though. Changes are needed. Too much time has been devoted to this nonsense. I’m tired, as I’m sure you are too.

[CraigMac6]

PilotDad thanks for the message! I hope you are doing well. Yes, it is time. We both are tired of the same old same old. I know the urges will come, heck most of the time today is a day those thoughts come into my mind which state “I can control my gambling” I can bet just 1 game a day and win. Blah blah blah. I say today because it’s opening day for Major League Baseball, and to be frank, I could careless. I use to love betting baseball. I use to love following the games in hopes of a victory. Many years ago I thought I had this fool proof theory of how to win in baseball. It worked for a while, but it wasn’t fool proof. Even with the wins, the time I spend watching game after game after game took away from my family.
Anyway, I’m still here. Still fighting each day. It’s not easy but it’s my only option. Gambling isn’t an option for me. I just got paid from all 3 of my jobs (yes work 3 jobs and have nothing to show from it except losing wagers), and I have given zero thought into making a deposit into my sportsbooks account. Well, that account is closed but they would open it up for me instantly, as they love to see me back.
I hope all of you are well. I know I rambled today, but please know I appreciate being able to ramble/vent. I know it helps.
Lets have a beautiful, gamble free day.

Be blessed.
Craig

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