I am going to try and put a proper recovery in plan today. After attending ga last week i realised more than ever that number 1 i am a compulsive tgambler for life and secondly i will continue to look at other addcitions to subsitute. At thsi moment in time i would have been 3 years without a bet but for one slip over xmass which i think i have got on top again. In ga and this site i got a lot of plaudits for staying gamble free which i was. Heres the problem i was 1 living beyound my means for the first year and going on drinking binges. my credit cards was taken of me in 08 because i couldent control my spending which mainly was clothes and golf equipment. A more expensive soul destroying addiction took over then which was visiting escorts. i shamefully visited this week. At thsi moment in time i have still very little money although i have shrunk my gamling debt in half. To summarise in the 3 years i was bet free i was not living a recovery program and cross addicting the whole time. I have squandered up to 12k on clothes drink escorts etc which i could be doing with. Still living the dream world . i amgetting help for my other addiction from this week on. I am still in a very hard position as my health gaives me terrible problems and gallbladder problems have appeared with my ibs and fybromyalgia. I ahve made out a list of reasonable tragets this year and have decided to absatin from all drugs including alcahol for a year.I am curently awaiting an ultrasound this week to see if my gallbladdr has to come out and am in a  lot of pain. yesterday i had gamble urges. i plan to visit ga at the very worst every second week this year.I plan to post a lot more on thsi site as well. at this moment in timer i feel very depressed and worried about things and am also in alot of pain.post again soonLarmister