[Tommy420]

Hi, new here. Today has got to the stage where I know I need to do something about my gambling. I am 32, and have gambled on and off for the last decade. 

I never thought I used to have a problem. Maybe I didn’t, but I do now. I could deposit £20 once every month or 2, and would leave it at that. Would always withdraw if I doubled my cash.

I’d never really won big, a couple of hundred here and there; until last October I won £7000 on a £2 spin. (Online slots are my thing) I took 6.5k out and left 500 in my account.
I paid off my credit cards, gave my mum some cash, I felt great. 

A couple of days later, after work I thought I’d try my luck and logged back into my account. I won another 3k. I was over the moon. I had this overwhelming sense that I was 
unstoppable! You can probably tell where this will end up….

I managed to spin away that 3k over 2 months. I felt so horrible. That money was supposed to go towards a holiday for my partner and myself. I ended up getting more credit cards, and a loan,
and am now in about 5k of debt. Thankfully, none of that debt is gambling related (well, in a sense it is). 

But what I’m finding now is that I’m blowing the majority of my monthly pay playing fucking slots. Half because I enjoy it now way more than before, and the other half trying to chase my losses and
‘what could be’. I think more about gambling now also.

I won £900 last night after a £50 deposit. Blown it all today. It was my day off and I just sat down and spun the day away. This happens at least once a week. Big chunks of cash that could go towards
my debt, but it never does. Which leaves me struggling again for another month. 

I have self excluded and came straight on here. It’s kind of late and I have not really gone into everything. Just needed to vent before I attempt to go to sleep.

Will keep this more as a journal, but feel free to comment.

Tommy

 

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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