[rmrm250]

I started playing slots only 5 years ago after a bad break up.
One evening i decided to go to the pub and have a drink and i saw a slot machine so i went over to it and put some money in and on the second spin i hit the jackpot $2500 wow my worries and relationship problems were go and i left straight away, 2 nights later i went to a different pub and went straight to the slots and bang $2500 win again one hour later $5000 win! well 4 years later i lost my home $155000, my savings $70000 my job and with only $26 dollars to my name and in debt to the taxation dept for $25000 and to the local back $15000 no social life no friends i hit rock bottom hard(emotionally) . During my stage i tried hypnotherapy,meditation, you name it everything and nothing worked and i realized it was not the slots that were the problem the lights sounds etc they were just an escape like alcohol or drugs, it was something deep within me so i decided to stop and search deep within and found a person who was afraid afraid of life and all the aspects of it afraid of failure in another relationship, drepressed with the past dwelling on the past zero socializing i hated socializing and worst of all not believing that i could do something better with my life, the financial rock bottom $26 and all the other money i had lost was a god sent as it gave me no choice and it happened for a reason, the reason to be reborn again starting from scratch and transform it was very difficuilt and motivation was non existant but there were 2 choices i had 1. suicide 2. start again i choose 2 after some serious thought so i went and got a job one that involved socializing (sales) and the first day i was very uncomfortable but i hung in there and now 6 months later iam a new person, my sales job has been rewarding more than i could ever imagine and i have nearly paid my debts off i have set a goal to by a little organic farm and love socializing now probably because i love myself now!. So i write this to show some light to others as iam no different to you, my level of addiction and negativity was extreme eg: while i was in the (slot machine zone) sombody would sit next to me and say „hi” and i would completely ignore them give them a dirty look and turn away from them, i would not go to the toilet i would not eat and if i ordered a sandwich i would just take 2 bites and leave it to run back to the slots, i would not want to talk to anybody for days and ignore phone call and this was happening while i was not gambling. So i hope this can be of some help to others because we are all humans and if i can do it so can you:)

[Anonimas]

Wow rmrm. What a wonderful and inspirational post. Well done on turning your life around. It reminded me of my big win nearly 4 years ago. Like you it cost me dearly. I still rem the date 10/10/10.. I thought there was some significance in the date. Regrettably it didn’t work for 11/11/11 or 12/12/12!!! My mum always says beginners luck is just the devil reeling you in. It soon disappears. It’s amazing how special we feel after a big win like that..reAding your post I find myself wondering is that what it’s all about. Feeling special, important, worthwhile… Your post has given me so much to think about. .. Well done and thAnk you do much for sharing.

[desdemona]

It’s regrettable that we have to lose so much before we hit our bottom. Thankfully you have found your way to recovery. Gambling addiction leads us to isolating ourselves as we seem to have no other interests other than gambling. I find that when I have a lot of time on my hands, I start thinking of gambling. I also start wanting to gamble when my husband is mean to me. Way to go on paying so much of your debt off, as debt can be stressful. What would you grow on your organic farm? I weed everything on my acreage by hand and don’t use any pesticides whatsoever as I have pets, but most importantly, I don’t want to contaminate the soil. Carole

[jackwilson]

Thank you for sharing your post and I’m glad you are doing so well now. I’m sure you inspire many on the boards, including myself.

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