Hey
Your story spoke to me very much. My biggest problem stemmed from online gambling and sports.
The sad thing is I love sports and was actually really good at betting the outcomes of games I knew. The problem is I’m compulsive and like you said would start placing bets on everything like I almost wanted to loose. Then when that would start I would go chasing with blackjack or anything I could place a bet on.
I will be fallowing your journey and wish you luck. Something I found worked for me was deleting any sports apps to avoid the thought of what game was even on. I also even stopped watching any sports as I found it to be a trigger for me at first. I am 4.5 months clean and now I can enjoy a game. It’s actually really nice enjoying sport again and not being affected by the outcome!