[DUPA12]

I have had issues with slot machines online for a few years now. But this year has been the worst, my partner gave me £6,000 to look after for him, I spent it. 

Yesterday, I won £12,000 enough to ‘make things right’ in my own head at least because he still doesn’t know about my deceitfulness. I could of payed back my overdraft and put his money back and have had enough still left to start again, but guess what? Like a true addict, my impulse took over and I spent it all again. 

I have closed all my accounts and pray for another chance to put things right again, but I doubt it will come. I feel so lost and I don’t know what to do. 

[kathryn]

Welcome,
I’m glad you have found this forum.
Closing your accounts is a good step, no access to money = no gambling for starts.
Maybe its time to come clean to your partner. That money isn’t coming back.
I know that can seem daunting, its a scary thing to do.
Your partner may be able to take control of the finances for a while so you can get your bearings and start to work recovery.
As Harry said, there are blockers you can put on your computer for gambling sites. Limiting your access to any kind of gambling gives you the opportunity to clear your mind a little bit.
Are there any GA meetings in your area? That may also be a big help, sharing with others who have the same addiction and understand what you are going through?
You can live a gamble free life. It is possible. I wish I could say it was easy but if it was we wouldn’t be here.
But its worth it.
Keep reading and posting, join the groups, learn about how to manage this addiction, it all adds up.
Take care,
K xxxxx

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