[cat438]

A new beginning, a new minute, new hour, new day, a new month. I know that for some December may not be a Month of Miracles, but we have to keep trying one day at a time!!! I never ever think that I have this addiction beat. I know that I have to continue to take it one day at a time, as if I get complacent it just comes and pulls me back to the machines. I still have a fear of machines and I don’t think I will ever lose it. I don’t know if that is right or wrong, but for me it is right.

[p]

Well today is the 1st of December, a new day, a new season and a new reason to have a gamble free day.
No gambling for me today on this first day of a wonderful new month full of possibilities..

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[cat438]

I originally typed on the subject line “Day 1 of December” and the Day 1 hit me so hard that I had to change it. I have had so many Day 1’s on this journey of recovery. I did not gamble in November and I will take December ODAAT. There are times that my thoughts turn to playing those machines… I start to remember the fun and excitement when I need to remember the despair, pain, self loathing. I do not plan on gambling today!!!

[p]

Today i had thoughts of gambling, the nice version, the unrealistic, deceitful version… i came here today and reminded myself of the real version and the truth of what a little bit of gambling would do for me today.. it would destroy my life, so I’m not going there. Not today.

P

[cat438]

Yes, our minds can take us back to the fun and exciting part of gambling, but we know it is not the reality if we gamble. I know that I have those thoughts, but I try so hard to squash them, as like you, I know it is not what it’s like. It’s like looking through rosy coloured glasses and only seeing part of the story!!! I think we need to look through reality glasses when those thoughts come. I do not plan on gambling today!!!

[cat438]

I have been quite a few thoughts of gambling lately. I will just take it one day at a time!!! I know that gambling is not the answer. I do not plan on gambling today!!!

[ready2change]

Having a few myself cat but staying focused we can do this odaat

[p]

Im not going to gamble today. I don’t do it anymore. Its something that i did in my past that i wish i hadn’t but i did. I will learn from my mistakes today and remember why i don’t want to gamble. Finding new things in life to do that are more beneficial to me.

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[p]

A decision and a choice, a line in the sand… no more gambling. No gambling for today

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[cat438]

I realize more and more how important these 5 words are. If I focus on today then I know that I will be okay. I did not gamble today.

[p]

I chose not to gamble today, no matter what. No matter what happens in my life today, it doesnt justify me gambling when i am fully aware of what follows.

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[desdemona]

Today is December 11th and I have not gambled in December. I will be away till December 17th so will be safe from gambling for at least that time. I can only remain gamble free a day at a time. Carole

[p]

I only need to get through today without gambling, thats all. I dont have to look ahead its too far away, i dont have to look behind its gone. Just what happens today.

P

[cat438]

If we take it a day at a time it does not seem so overwhelming, but if we think about a week, two weeks, a month from now it is just too much. I don’t think about never gambling again I just think about today. I do have times when thoughts come from nowhere especially when I am stressed, but starting to recognize more and more when I have to be more diligent as just like that everything can change. I know that I will not gamble today. I will not worry about tomorrow.

[vera]

December 23rd!
No gambling this month!
Four weeks G free and it is very unlikely that I will gamble today, tomorrow, Christmas Day,or the days after Christmas, so it looks as if I am heading for a G free December odaat!
Happy Christmas everyone!

[desdemona]

December is truly the month of miracles. One day at a time this will be my first gamble free month in 3 years! Enough with sabotaging myself by having a slip(s) every month. The relentless urges I’ve experienced in the past 2 days are gone, thankfully!! Carole

[cat438]

I have not gambled in the 30 days of December and I will focus on tomorrow when it comes. I take it day by day as for me it seems the only way to go!!!

[익명]

Way to go Cat. Congratulations. treat yourself to a nice reward. You deserve it!

[vera]

December was a G free month for me!

Deo gratias!

[janey1]

We’re all really proud of you 🙂

Janey

[icandothis]

Congrats to all!

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