My husband got a promotion at work. He will be making more money and be on the track to move into management. He has worked so hard and I am very happy that he was recognized. The biggest change for our family is he will now be working evenings. I will most likely be asleep when he gets home. He will most likely be asleep when I leave for work. He will still be off on weekends, but this is a big change for us. He has been prodding me out of the house for years. He cooks about 3 or 4 times during the work week. He brings me coffee in the mornings and usually makes it ready to brew before going to bed. He locks up the house and drives our son and picks him up if he is out. I am going to have to be responsible for all this again. The first 10 years of our marriage, I did most of everything, but the last 13 years he has done at least half if not more than half of all the housework and cooking.
I sound like a whiner, I know. I know I sound like a lazy person and I am freaking out a little on having to take up the slack. He says he will do stuff before he leaves for work and I know he will. I guess above all I am going to miss him. I will barely get to speak to him in person for five days a week.
Time to let him shine. He worked to keep our family provided for so I could go to school. I want him to feel successful at work. I am having a hard time trying to remember when I wasn’t so spoiled by him. I have to remember how I used to do it all! He used to work 6 days a week and crazy hours, but that was so long ago.
I wanted to go to the casino yesterday, but he was strong and told me he would go shopping with me instead. I spent about$150 on new clothes and we went to dinner. I have no urges today. I am glad I didn’t go. I have new shoes, new slacks, new shorts, and bathroom towels. A new shower curtain and these are things I can hold in my hand. Things that were falling apart from neglect. I want to keep away from self destruction.
